Now am I good enough?

c 13

We got closer day by day na nandito kami sa Paris and I never expected it to turn out like this I expect na magwawala siya at tatalon sa jet pabalik sa Philippines.

We catch up with or lives and all the happenings, I enjoyed her company but I felt something is missing I felt a piece is missing in me I shrugged and payed attension nalang dito sa elevator patunggo sa Itaas ng Eiffel Tower.

We got out and enjoyed the view until I decided to finally talked more seriously with Louise.

“Louise” I called her, she looked over me questioning.

Give me love playing by ED SHEERAN

“Told you I do everything” I smiled. “I became the one of the best kidney surgeon in the world, I won many award for being an out standing surgeon, I graduated at Harvard medicine as an outstanding student and as Suma Cum Laude, I won many competitions and I achieve a lot more” I said to her determination visible in my eyes and continued “Have I done enough? And am I worthy to court you?” I said smiling at her with full of hope.

She smiled and took a deep breath ‘Riley Montero you’ve done perfect not enough but perfect, you’ve come so far you achieved great things You are much more worthy to court any girls you want and they will be so much honored to accept you’re offer, but as much as I was lucky right now. Hindi kita matatanggap na manligaw sa akin’ she said and smiled sadly.

She then grab my hand and continued.
‘Dahil mas meron pang taong mas karapat-dapat na pagbigyan mo ng lahat ng efforts, panahon at pagmamahal mo.’ She sighed and a single tear escaped my eyes.

‘You’ve been running behind me, chasing me for so long.  And forgot at the person who’s running beside you.' she said and tears begin to fall from her pained looking eyes.

'You’ve been so blinded by your curiosity with me and with my answer at dahil doon hindi mo na papansin at nakikita ang taong nandian sa tabi mo nung una pa lang, yung taong sumuporta sayo sa lahat ng ginagawa mo, yung taong handang mag sakripisyo para sa ikasasaya ng mina-mahal niya kahit subrang sakit na sa kanyang kaloob-looban pero pilit na ngumingiti para di niya mapakita sayo na subrang nasa-saktan siya’ she stopped and placed her hand on my cheek.

“But that can’t be, she treated me like her best friend and nothing else” I said to her.

‘That’s because she knows her boundaries and limits, you’re just too blinded to see that in her eyes the love and passion every time she looked at you, akala mo ba hindi ko kayo napapansin? As much as I want you Riley but I can’t’. She said to me.

“Why?”

‘Because I will only lose you, dahil hindi ko maibibigay ng buo ang sarili ko di ko maibibigay ang lahat ng pagmamahal ko kagaya ng pagmamahal niya para sayo, I thanked you with all of this, for all your time, efforts and love thank you Riley I wanted to be with you but with all my priorities and work, we will only lose this magic’ she said sadly.

‘You love her you just don’t know it yet because of your unanswered question for so long, so finally I’m giving you the answer that you’ve been seeking and wanted’ she said and took a deep breath ‘So Riley Senon Montero I hereby fully reject you and letting you free and be with the person you are truly meanted to be with’ she said kissing my hand and hugging me ‘you will sooner realize that’s it’s her, it’s her you’ve been seeking and longing for’ she whispered at me I nodded smiling tears escaped in my face.

We then headed back to the hotel and took a rest preparing for tomorrows flight back to the Philippines.

“Thank you Louise” I said to her smiling.
‘No thank you Riley for everything and best regards for you and Bethany’ she said hugging me ‘Now go get her tiger’ she said waving at me while entering the black car na maghahatid sa kanya pa labas ng airport at pabalik sa kanila.

Na pa smile ako sa kanyang sinabi na-alala ko kasi noong nay un ang unang sinabi ni Bethany saakin para lapitan siya.

‘Hay nako Bethany bakit ang naging tangga ko at hintayin pa na iba ang magpaliwanag saakin’ I smiled in my thoughts.

‘Now I slowly realize the times na magkasama kami ay parang gumiginhawa at napakasaya ng nararamdaman ko parang tumatalon ang puso ko sa subrang saya tuwing nakakasama ko siya.’ Ang raming narealise ko habang papunta sa kanya.