Astronaut Or Alien? [DISCONTINUED TEMPORARILY]

2 (Songfic?)

Hey there, it's Zero again. I need to tell you something-

There's gotta be another way out, I've been stuck in a cage with my doubt, I've tried forever getting out on my own...

All these years of keeping to myself have done nothing for me. I just want you to know that, well, you shouldn't let the demons in your head control your life. You could blame the way I've been brought up, but in all honesty...I gave in to the demon. I let it control my life, up until now.

Every time that I do this my way, I get caught in the lies of the enemy, I lay my troubles down, I'm ready for you now...

My family have shown me things that I wouldn't know about if I had kept to myself for this long. Never let your parents control every aspect of your life. It's yours, eventually they need to give you more control. Something I never had until the 6th November 2017.

Bring me out, come and find me in the dark now, every day by myself I'm breaking down, I don't wanna fight alone anymore...

Don't do what I did for years and bottle up the truth from everyone you knew. Don't act like you're living a happy life, if deep down you know you're not. I...I know I sound stupid, telling you all of these random things, but I have to teach you a lesson. I don't want you to end up like I did. Even if you're 51! Just...promise me, you won't be a fool.

Bring me out, from the prison of my own pride, my God I need a hope I can't deny, in the end I'm realising, I was never meant to fight on my own!

If social services hadn't have pulled me away from the life I was living, I would never learn. Sometimes, I wish I could travel back in time and tell my past self to stop giving in to the nasty demon inside.

Every little thing that I've known, is everything I need to let go, you're so much bigger than the world I have made...

I used to shelter myself from the harsh reality we live in. Perhaps it was my escape from living with a mentally and physically unwell parent. Even now I revisit that fantasy land, but I've decided to have the best of both worlds. I hate to say this, but my mum was always trying to snap me out of my little world. I don't think she realised it was my way of escaping my stresses and worries. I wonder if you have a little world of your own-

So I surrender my soul, I'm reaching out for your hope, I lay my weapons down, I'm ready for you now...

Now, the issue still remains. Who am I? It's like I knew all along that I wasn't anybody. I used to ask around school "Who are you?" They'd describe themselves to me. I learned that it takes time to figure out who you are. I've only been learning since November. 8 months. Of course I'm not anyone yet. Like I just said, it takes time.

Bring me out, come and find me in the dark now, every day by myself I'm breaking down, I don't wanna fight alone anymore!

Bring me out, from the prison of my own pride, my God I need a hope I can't deny, in the end I'm realising, I was never meant to fight on my own!

I don't wanna be incomplete, I remember what you said to me, I don't have to fight alone...

Bring me out, come and find me in the dark now, every day by myself I'm breaking down, I don't wanna fight alone anymore!

Bring me out, from the prison of my own pride, my God I need a hope I can't deny, in the end I'm realising, I was never meant to fight on my own!