Astronaut Or Alien? [DISCONTINUED TEMPORARILY]

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It's been six days, wow. Anyway, I just wanted to talk to you so you know I'm still here.

So, lately...I've been having nightmares every night. I always wake up super early and I'm drenched in sweat. I have to be honest here...all of my nightmares have been about my biggest fear...abandonment. Yeah. My mind's just clouded with thoughts at the minute. My family suggested I talk to my therapist, when I get accepted. I need to confess something. I-I don't directly ask for help. Most of the time I just silently beg or hint for help if I need it. I don't know why I'm like that, I've always been that way though...

I think that when I get put back into therapy though, I'll be more open about my issues. In the past, I've always found it difficult to be open about my problems. I have low confidence in some areas anyway.

I think I know why I've been having nightmares. I'm nervous about how the future will turn out. I have all of these little worries in my head that won't go away, and my brain unleashes my fears in the form of nightmares.

The earliest nightmare I had, was when I was concerned about my mum's safety. I still worry about my friends and family's safety to this day. I'm always being told not to worry. It's difficult when I've been brought up to care for everyone. I guess my mind interpreted that differently and thought 'Care about everyone's safety and health and so on'.

I guess I'm well known for being the kid with a permanent little rain cloud hovering above my head...for multiple reasons. The first one is because I can be a smol depressed 'cinnamon roll'as people call me, and  the second is because I hate the sun. Haha. It's too hot...

It looks like I have to go for now, I guess I'll see you soon?