PRETTYMUCH EVERYTHING

Nick

"Nick...?" I look up while making my tie. I hate wearing ties and really at this moment. "Do you need help?" I shake my head, Brandon smiles weakly and left my room. 10 minutes later we're all in the car and we're all wearing black tux. "Nick are you okay? We can drive back home?" "Just drive please." I didn't want to get out of the car when we arrived. If feels like if i go there i never see her again. "Nick come on." "I can't." And the tears that i couldn't cry for a week suddenly came out. Like there was not tommorow, she was gone. And i couldn't bring her back. "It's gonna be okay...!" Austin try to comfort me but nothing could help. The only thing i want is her. In my arms. Right now. After couples of minutes they arrived to get me out of the car. We walked inside the church, the church where we should marry if she was still there. "Nick you came." I look at the mother of Y/N and take her in a hug. We both sits on the first row i looked at the coffin and couldn't the love of my life. Standing there. Her hair was down and she have this beautiful dress that i once bought her. The ceremony started and the only thing i could do was crying. "Now her boyfriend can come fowards." Her mom squeezes my hand before i got on stage and look at the crowd, i recognized the boys when Brandon smiled at me and saying it was okay. "Eeuhm..." i started to get warm, something i do when i'm nervous "I rememberd when i met her, it was at a meet and greet cause she was fan of our band." i smiled at this memory "Then i asked her number and we started to text, one day i asked her on a date of course she said yes. I took her to the beach not something special. She liked it and asked for a second one. On this second one i finally said to her i liked her." My hands started to shiver. "She said it back, we started to date and i couldn't dream better. I was already thinking with her about married each other and making kids." I looked at my paper. The text was different because i didn't write what she would like to hear. "But God didn't think the same as us. He took my babygirl away in this stupid car accident." I sniffed and rub in my eyes. "I just want to say that i love you baby and i know that up there you're okay. Bye babyangel we will miss you." Everybody started to clapp, i get off stage and sit back at my place. The ceremony ended, we all walk outside to grave her, to say our last goodbye. They put her coffin in there and everybody throw away a tulip. Her favourite flower. When it was my turn i took something out of my pocket. A box. With a engagement ring. " Y/N...would you marry me?" And i cry. I throw it in the hole. And then even i knew it. She was gone and i had to move on...