tutor ↬ chensung

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[ chenle is on the left, jisung is on the right]

10 pm

the sun's set, the night animals are roaming around. but the two boys aren't scared of the dark, they're scared of what the other will say.

"so ..."

"so ...
{ his heart beat faster and faster }
i k-know, i mean, i'm"

"take your time"
{ oh god what is he gonna say }

{ his thoughts jumble }
(sigh) "i know we kid around a lot about liking each other but ...
i have something to say."

{ oh my god he likes me back }
"yes?"

they stare at each other. they're lost in each other's eyes and want nothing but to embrace each other, but they can't. they need to speak their feelings into existence.

"i like you! no, i love you. i always have, since before you ran away with me. since before you took me into your home. since before you held me while i cried. since before you had patience in me and taught me. since before you passed me that note. always."

"i love you too. more than words can describe. more than words will describe, since i'm terrible at expressing my feelings in anything other than passion."

then he grabbed jisung by the shirt and their lips collided, and that sweet sensation they had both yearned for for years finally exploded across their bodies, uncontrollable happiness. they had finally given in, and it felt so good.

as they lay folded into one another that night, they didn't bother to go home. their mattress was about as comfortable as the forest floor anwway, they might as well stay there, they fought about who loved the other more. in the end they decided they couldn't beat each other and just had to deal with it. and that was enough for them.

"goodnight jisung,"

"goodnight chenle."

{ a pause }

"i love you." { he said quietly }

"not as much as i do."