rambles

July 26, 2018

6:37pm
     Hello. my phones currently at 15% so lets have some fun, shall we?
     I haven't studied Korean all day Im so lazy. So instead of being productive I was a lazy bitch and did nothing all day. I was gonna clean my room but thats cool I guess. Oh shit i gotta do laundry brb.
   
6:50pm
     Hey im back ik to you that was literally no time but here i am, 20 mins after i wrote that first blurb of nonsense.
     I just found out that Hobi my boi did the in my feelings challenge im not dissapointed.
     I havent had any deep thoughts today but we'll see what happens at 1:00am. Cant wait. see you there.

7:39pm
    I guess i lied. so hey bitch wassup, i made mango sorbet and im so mf proud of myself. its was pretty tastey too.
     My parents went and got dinner without us thats not fair. i had a hazelnut uncrustable thingy and they got steak. wow wat a first world problem jesus christ.

8:00pm
    update im not a lazy bitch bc i just studied Korean and practiced piano look at my privleged ass making good use of the damn time.
     update on a serious note, i dont want school to start yet im not prepared. ik i sound like every other teen in America but listen, *please don't* im going to a school I've never been to before, and its going to be the first and last year i will ever be there. should i actually do well and try my best because gotta live it up *ew* (i mean why not) on your last day you know gotta make those grADES GOODZ, GOTTA MAKE SOME GREAT FRIENDS. or should i just not care bc 8th grade doesnt even matter, and i wont ever be ther again bc i gotta worry about freshman year. unless i flunk the whole grade then ill have to go again but thats never happened before so ill be good right????
     i dont know i feel so bitchy complaining about my first world problems to the general public.
     speaking of, im so nervous like its a problem. speaking of that I think i have an anxiety problem but its whatever. no its not its really not whatever but ill survive. i think. can you die from anxiety? ill google it bc u never know nowadays.

     im sorry why are you still reading this.

     should i dress nice at school? should i start wearing makeup? is that pimple gonna b easy to cover up? I DONT F*CKIN KNOW! IM A GODDAMN CHILD HOW WILL I KNOW??? itll be hard to dress decent at school because literally all of my wardrobe is just tee-shirts and jeans. I own one button down shirt, (from walmart) and two pairs of dress pants, (also from walmart). Im not even joking i swear. the most expensive clothing item i have is a sweater from american eagle and i bought it with a gift card from my uncle. (and it was on sale hehe). I dont own dresses or skirts bc ewwww. Oh my god im making it sound a lot worse than it is. but non of its a lie???? ugh idk. i love goodwill and walmart they are great. just dont get swimsuits at goodwill, please.

   should i start saving money to buy nice clothes? I have an extreme complex about wearing makeup bc when i was like 7 i said i hated makeup to my mom and i cant just be like "oh can i start wearing makeup" when ive kept up this thing of "i hate makeup" for so long. my moms warm and caring and i know it wont be a problem i just dont want to because im a stubborn bitch.

am i whiney or relateable? AHHHHH I AM SO DONE. i dont fucking know how the hell my life is so filled with first world problems right now. school starts in like three weeks so if u got tips hmu.

see you tomorrow,
Echo