Two Ex's And One Best Friend

Chapter 3: Xavier

Xavier POV:

After an hour of my rocking her back and forth she managed to fall asleep. I couldn’t help but think how beautiful she looked sleeping.

Her body would be sore in the morning, if I didn’t move her of this floor and into her bed. Standing up I pulled her into my arms. April fit so perfect it was as if her body molded to fit every curve of my chest to match her body.

Walking over to her bed I held her tight with one hand. The other hand I pulled back the covers to lay her down and tuck her in. I would just lay her down and leave her. Couldn’t stand for her to wake up and start crying all over again.

“I love you April I am just afraid that I don’t deserve you.” I could tell her how I feel when she’s sleep but never when she’s awake.

Coward that’s what I am…I am such a coward. Definition a person who lacks courage in facing danger, difficulty, opposition, pain. That’s what I am. My danger that I would have to face was expressing how I felt to April.

Her eyes were puffy and to think it was my entire fault for her crying tonight.

I turned to walk away but she had a tight grip on my shirt. Should I wake her and tell her I’m leaving or spend the night here with the girl that I truly love. I moved her body over so I could fit in the bed next to her. No sudden movement my heart would ache if she started crying again. Placing her head on my chest her body instantly moved closer to mine. I froze while her arms tightened on my body. As if she was afraid I would run in the middle of the night.

Standing still and watching her until I was sure she was surly off into sleep.  

I traced her face were the tears now laid dried up. This is the girl that I tell everything to. Yet I couldn’t tell her how I really feel about her. Yes I’m with someone but she could never compare to how I feel about April. If April know that Ashley was the one that set me up with Yana. I didn’t find anything pleasing about her, but Ashley said it would help get my mind of April.

At first I through she was right. When I kissed Yana every time I opened up my eyes I couldn’t help but notice it wasn’t April. Or how when Yana laughed it only made me think of April sweet laugh that almost sounded like she had hiccup’s if you made her laugh hard enough.

I’m captain of the basketball team. Girls would flash there boobs at me just to get my attention. I stood up to people and took slack from no one. Yet it seemed that this girl right here in my arms right now was the one to make me second guess my self. I never second guess anything.

I live with my grandma and my younger sister. They never seem to like any girl I brought home or hung out with. The very first day I brought April home it was odd. I had warned her about my grandmother and sister. How they didn’t approve of anyone I know well girl wise. It was odd because they fell in love with her so quickly. Then again so did I.

My grandmother talked with her as if she knew her whole life. The moment I walked in the door I remember April standing in the hallway to scared to enter. For a moment I through she had ran away. But when I walked back to the door she was standing there looking at me.

 I laughed she said she didn’t want my grandmother to not like her or kick her out. She even tried to turn around and go back out the door. I pulled her in the house. She stood in the living room for a good ten minutes not moving or talking. I through she even stopped breathing for a moment. Ha-ha but she loosed up and fit right in.

Staring at her right now I fell for her more. When she wake up in the morning will she be upset at seeing me? Will she kick me out her room?

I could always leave. But I miss our sleep overs we used to have. We would camp out in my room. I’ll give her my bed and I’ll take the floor. We would watch television all day and eat candy and drink soda until we were either too tired or to full.

But I would wake up in the middle of the night and she would be on the floor next to me with the pillow and blank from of the bed around us. I would talk to her in her sleep until I feel back to sleep again. That’s when things used to be simpler between us. Now everything is just so complicated.

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