Is This Really Happening?

Chapter 24

A small diamond ring appeared before my eyes and Harry was down on one knee.

"I know this is crazy and we're so young, but I never wanted to hurt you and I always wanted to marry you from the moment I met you. I didn't know that this would all happen but loosing you for six months, I just couldn't bring myself to forgive myself for hurting you so bad. I love you and if you could just forget the past, I would be an honor if you would marry me"

"Harry, I..." I thought about it and knew what I should say but I listened to my heart instead.

"No more lying cheating or anything, honesty all the time" I replied.

"Does that mean yes?" he asked with a smile on his face.

"No." I replied. His face went pale and he started to get up as a tear formed. "Wait Harry, I'm not ready to get married but I am willing to give us another shot" I said looking him in the eye."And I do want to marry you but right now is just not a good time."

"I'll take it" he said giving me another kiss. "And Natalie..." he trailed off looking at my belly.

"Harry, a week ago I lost the baby, I had a miscarraige and wanted to tell you. I'm so sorry" I choked out as I started crying as well.

He started to cry as well and pulled me into him. We just stood there holding each other and remmebering the past.

"This is all my fault" Harry said threw his tears.

"No its not, its mine. I was carrying her, and you didn't do anything wrong."

"It was a her?" he asked. "And if I wasn't a jerk then you wouldn't have had to leave and be all on your own." he said still holding me.

***

After many more tear he left the office and told me he would pick me up after work at my apartment.

I knew that I should have just told him that I didn't want to get back together with him because of Seth but I just couldn't bare to lose him again. I called Seth and told him everything.

"Seth, I'm so sorry, all this happened so expectantly I just don't know how to deal with it. And I know we just started dating and it's been going great, but I've always been in love with Harry. I know our relationship together has lasted from kindergarten till now, but... i just think we are best off as best friends" I admitted, which broke my heart.

"Natalie, I want to stay friends forever, I can't loose you as a friend, but I also realized that out relationship has always been better as friends." Seth told me.

I felt relieved that he felt the same way.

***

I left work later that day and went home to go change and get ready for my date with Harry. I couldn't believe that it had been so long since I last saw him. He looked really good but hardly changed he was still the same sweet, carefree, loving Harry, who I loved more than anything.

I walked up to the stairs of my apartment and heard a voice.

"Hello"

I did a small jump as I turned around to see all the boys standing there. I couldn't believe the were all there! It was like a reunion. They each pulled me into a tight hug and told me how much the missed me.

"I can't believe its been so long! I've missed you guys so much. There hasn't been a day that went by that I didn't think about all of you." I said.

We talked a little while longer and then the boys left Harry and I alone.

"It's been a long day and I need to take a shower and get ready for our date." I told Harry.

"Great, I'll take one with you" he said smiling and taking my hand.

After our shower I put on Harry's shirt. I missed his smell so much. We decided to stay in and he said he would cook us some dinner. He walked around half naked because I was wearing his shirt. It was just like old times, like the first time that we made love, but there was no Louis to interrupt us.

Dinner was ready and we sat down and enjoyed the meal.

"Natalie, I know you love your life here, and I wouldn't be asking you this, but.... Its just that the boys and I are leaving in a couple of days to continue our tour. And well... Before, you did say that you wanted to come" he said sounding a little nervous.

"Harry, I would love to, but I don't think I can just drop my stuff and leave with you. I could maybe see if I could bring my work with me and just fly back to New York every couple of weeks." I said starting to think if it could actually work out.

***

A week later I had worked out a plan with my boss and went on the road with the band as they finished up their tour.

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Thank you so much to anyone who read this. Please leave comments and thoughts about what you liked a disliked. I am writing a sequel to this so it doesn't end here.