(TRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS/TALKING ABOUT SUICIDE, AND UNHEALTHY FATHER-SON RELATIONSHIPS.
LET'S JUST SAY DADDY HAMILTON IS NO LONGER A NICE GUY-----)
~Alex~
"Your cousin just committed suicide. And it's your fault." Dad growled. I probably paled a few shades, at least it felt like it, because John walked over and put a hand on my shoulder.
"Wh-what?" I gasped softly, trying to wrap my head around what Dad just said.
"You heard me! I went to his apartment to talk, and I found him dead from a self inflicted knife wound on his kitchen floor, with a note written that said it was your fault!"
I don't think I heard anything else, or even took notice of anything else after that. I was vaguely aware of John taking the phone from me to talk to Dad, but.. The only other feeling that stood out was.. This odd sad numbness.
Was my cousin... Really dead? Was it really my fault?
I quickly scanned my memory for any trace of when I was rude to my cousin. The only times I could recall were when he was being insensitive first and I snapped, but I had always apologized afterwards and we'd always made up.....So.. What gives?
I'm aware of my breathing quickening. It feels like there's a haze of white clouding my vision, because I can't focus on anything. I hear John's voice in the background, but I'm not listening.
Nothing's adding up. Absolutely nothing is adding up as I fight back my panic. It's not until John kisses my forehead that I'm dragged back to reality in one violently swift motion. I'm thankful he's standing in front of me now, because it feels like I just lost all control of my legs as I fall forward. He catches me easily, and gently picks me up and sets me on the bed.
"Alex?" He murmured as he sat next to me. I just sighed shakily, my vision blurring due to the tears forming.
"i.. i'm okay.." I mutter, leaning against him and letting him run a hand through my hair. I liked it when he did that, it felt really good.. And it was a good anchor to have.
We remained silent after that, just staying in each other's presence. It was comforting in a sense, but it still didn't stop me from feeling.. Lost.
Nothing made sense.. I wish I could have gotten proof of all of this instead of just panicking but... I guess it is what it is..
I guess I can feel a little comforted knowing that my cousin is with my mother now on the other side. They're safe and happy on the other side. Forever loved on the other side..
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sOMEWHAT SAD CHAPTER SORRYYY
BUT IT SETS UP FOR A BUUUNNNCCCHHHAAAA STUFF LATER ON >: DDD
THERE'S MYSTERY AFOOT, AND IT'S UP TO YOU GUYS TO FIGURE IT OUT~ >: 33
Next few chapters might be pretty sad btw, sorryyy
But having the sad will balance out the good.
Can't have too much good, amirite-
Also prepare for a stormTM chapter coming soon whEE-
Cause what Hamilton story is without a stormTM chapter amiritE-
Oof, alrighty, I hope you liked it, have a great day/night, and wear your seatbelts, //mwah
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