You said I'd be Okay

•Prolouge•

Tobias
I sat in Miss Mollie's comfortable red, leather swivel chair she has in her office.
I just love coming to her office. She knows how to make me feel so much better after revealing all my deepest, darkest secrets. Miss Mollie is an amazing councilor. She may be the only one I've had but she is just the greatest.

"Mr. Forge. I see that you have listened to my request about you coming down to my office today." Miss Mollie said as she sat in her own red, swivel chair.

"Well yeah Miss. How could I not see my favorite councilor when she needs me." I said spinning in my chair.

She sighed and started digging through her desk.

I hope it's candy. I could really go for a nice piece of granny candy. You know like the hard caramel pieces. Those are to die for. Miss Mollie was always the staff member in this building to have candy just laying around in her desk. I don't know what's I'd do without her. I smiled big that she would never leave.

I got startled by her slamming a beautifully pink, purple, and blue hardcover notebook. I looked up at her in a confused gaze.

"What is this for? If your trying to make me do a diary entry thing. I am not doing it." I said crossing my arms over my black leather jacket.

"Tobias, I'm not forcing you to do anything. I'm only here to simply help you find better solutions to stop your cutting. So I'm giving you this notebook to write down your thoughts in a poem like format." she said handing me the book.

I looked at it and said, "But Mollie I'm bad at poetry. Poetry is the reason I got put into counseling because my parents found out I started cutting at least. Luckily they didn't read much before giving my original book to you. Which is why you know so much about me and how much trauma I went through."

I didn't realize I was getting angry till Miss Mollie said, "Tobias please sit down. I know your poetry lead you here, but in this case that is only part of the reason why your getting this book. Your other job is to write about how that poem makes you feel."

I just couldn't understand why she is doing this. I may have only been here for a month, but she knows how bad I get. I got up from my chair again and paced around the room just spilling nonsense out my mouth that she already knew about me.

"Tobias Russell Forge. Please knock it off and sit back down and just listen to me." she said.

I huffed and sat back down mumbling bitch under my breath as I looked her in the eye.

"The reason I'm doing this is because I am leaving the department. They have moved me to another location far from here. I was lucky enough to tell you before I had to leave. So I want you to continue your progress. Just in poetry and a reflection about that piece. I have full faith in you. Don't let your progress fall apart because of my absence. Okay." said Miss Mollie, getting up to hug me.

I started crying as she hugged me. The only person I was comfortable telling my problems with is now leaving. She even lied to my parents about my progress in the beginning because I'd threaten to kill myself. Wasn't the best now that I think about it. But she broke code for me. Nobody else will do that for me.

I hugged her tightly as my crying only worsened. The tears flowing out of me like a river. Miss Mollie just can't go. Not yet. Senior year is right around the corner. I'm not going to go to anyone she suggests. She's the only one I'm so comfortable with. She knows the trauma and why I am the way I am.

"Tobias. It wasn't my choice. I really wish I could stay. I love everyone here and I love you. Your my favorite client. Your the reason why I love my job. I love helping teens find the way to get to a better place. But I'm sorry that I can't finish your path. I hope in your last year you find someone who you can trust like you do in me. It may be this notebook for now, but I just know someone will come around to change things for you." she said as she pulled away and wiped my tears.