Your not the man I fell in love with

Introduction

I know why I did it.Looking into the brown,innocent whirl pools called eyes of my 5 year old son,I know why.Walking across the bridge that's over the Swahili river would be the last place he would think I would be at.He I am referring to is my devilishly handsome,self-centered,lying,cheating husband.Being that devoted wife that you always dreamed to be for a man who knows our worth plus more is everything a girl could imagine.Yet being with a man of power and wealth as Lloyd (my husband) is a different ball game(literally).My child and I coming second to the game of football that I help him stay on top of with my encouragement,keeping him on top in the public eye.All he worries about is how his body is developing ,what people think about him as a DB and businessman..never about us.He has never been there for me and our son Tahj.Just to be 5 years old he sees the pain I go through with the man he perceives to be his father.Crying my eyes out every night,my son comes to wipe my tears away.He asks me all the time"why does daddy treat us this way" A FIVE YEAR OLD! He always asked Lloyd to come play with him,sit and talk with him,watch tv,you can name anything and beyond and he neglects him,The responds he gets is" I'm busy right now with business,maybe later" knowing it's not going to be a later.Not only that,but cheating on me with women who are faithful home-wreckers such as exscorts  and strippers,Having them call my cell phone,describing to me what color underwear he has on,what my home looks like and how good he is in bed.The disrespect went beyond it's limit and I am tired.I do too much for this man and to be treated as less important to others that wasn't there when he had nothing or to the Football world of which made him a corrupt egotistical a multi-billion dollar man he wasn't when he was 19 years old,I will not stand for it.So I took tahj and left all of it right where it was in Atlanta,Ga.