Kidnapped: Colby Brock part 2

chapter 5: the beach

"bailey are you even listening to me?" katrina asked from the seat next to me. "yeah, something about a party" i said not even sure if i was correct. "yeah. are you ok?" concern lacing her voice. was i ok? i didnt even know the answer for that. physically maybe but mentally there was a storm and i wasn't even able to think one relevant thought. i felt as if the ground beneath me was swallowing me whole. everytime my eyes closed colby was the first thought to fill my mind, and along with colby was heart break. One second he would seem to be filled with sorrow and regret while others he would look at me with pure hatred in his eyes.  maybe i wasnt okay, maybe i should ask for help. but then what would that do, no one can change the thoughts in my head the doubt, it would only make it more of a reality if i said it out loud. so who would that help. "im fine" i said with a sigh, my palm dragging down my face. "i dont like being lied to bailey" fuck.

flashback

  as we walked down the street, Colby explained the rough times he has had in his life. the times he has collapsed in the shower and broke down crying. as he explains he asks me to explain my story. i simply say " im fine" forcing a fake smile on my face. Colby stops in his tracks " i dont like being lied to bailey" he states firmly and continues walking .

end of flashback

my heart stopped with agony, he had said those exact words the night we met. "bailey!" katrina yelled, i shook my head as if it would clear my foggy brain, "yeah?" "you've been zoning out for like 5 minutes whats going on?" her eyes held sympathy but her face told me she wouldn't let me get out of the car if i didnt tell her. i haven't told anybody about what ive been thinking, about my confusion with colby, my hurt. "i m-miss him k-kat" i finally sobbed out , my voice cracking "he hurt me s-so bad but i need him. i miss the tingles i would get when he h-hugged me, i miss when he would keep me up at night annoying the shit out of me" i smiled at the memorys, tears flooding my face "i miss how he would wipe my tears with his thumb, or kiss my forehead before bed. i miss everything. i just- i miss him" i looked over at her to see a single tear fall down her cheek, she made no move to wipe it away "oh bailey" she hugged me and i nussled my face into her shoulder "katrina, bailey lets go!" sam said running down the beach. i roughly wiped my cheeks and stepped out of the car. "thank you kat" a genuine smile upon my lips "dont mention it".

time skip

we had been playing in the water and i somehow ended up alone, standing where the water reached my hips, i watched the sunset. fish would swim by every now and then. it was peaceful. "bailey" i turned around, eyes wide before walking away. "bailey! you cant ignore me forever!" colby screamed at me, grabbing my wrist tightly. i turned around quickly "yes! actually i can colby!" shocked filled his face, i havent spoken at all to him in months, the last time i talked to him was in that hospital room screaming for him to get out. "and i intend to as well" i spoke quietly. "please bailey" tears streamed down his cheeks now, and before i was able to stop it my hand cupped his cheek and wiped away his tears with my thumb. i couldnt pull back, my mind was screaming at me to but my body wasnt listening "im so sorry bailey" he spoke softly. one hand made its way to my hip playing with the slits in my bathing suit while the other cuped my face. we were inches apart, centimeters, milimeters. finally i got ahold of myself and pulled away "i cant do this" i ran towards kat, my vision blurred "kat please take me home." she nodded slightly and we made out way to the car. in the time span of a day i had managed to break all of my rules.