this one song,
brother,
by a band that is dear to me.
it says that i took for granted family.
i guess i did the same.
i had a whole family,
siblings i fought and loved,
parents who fought and loved each other,
not themselves.
then not each other.
i watched my family fall apart.
only if when i was young,
i would have held them close.
i would have cherished the moments.
but they're gone.
i miss them.
now my father,
has a brain injury.
and he is no longer himself.
he's molested me.
my mother is falling apart at the seems,
married to a guy who fights her,
with a baby.
my oldest sister,
has her own family and,
cries for financial stability.
my youngest sister,
cries alone,
in my mother's home,
for a proper mental state.
me,
i die in silence,
for the life i once had.
i really should have loved my family,
lived in the time i had with them.
but it's all gone now.
a.m.
