stormclouds, dust, and a little bit of rain

please don't leave me

i

will fall

and break into pieces

my mind is frozen in a haze and their words are hurled at me

as swift as arrows

as sharp as knives

i see her sitting alone trapped in her mind

she's thinking

hard

about something new

she studies her hands too thoroughly and they shatter beneath her gaze

she curses the man that left her like this, that did this to her

he killed her

he killed her

he killed her

he knows he killed her but he can't bring himself to apologize

she's running

too far away

too much to break her

the sky is falling in polygonal pieces around her

trees are falling branches are splitting

waves are crashing water is soaking her through

under her skin she is cold

freezing, shuddering at the thought of warmth

what could she do that she hasn't done yet

her feet carry her farther and faster

she thinks she's beating the storm

but her ankles have been cracking from the start

she stops thinking

immediately

do what you love, she says,

dance

let the world fall apart as long as the wind howls a happy tune

and who cares if your bones break or your seams split

who cares if your steps are wrong or your feet fall through the cracks in the universe you have created

if you are doing what you love

dance

who cares if you crash through the ground

into fire

your body erupts into flame and you smile

heat sizzles against your skin as acid rain adds to the fire in your soul

she's thinking deeply

deeply

her mind retracts its statement or everything it has every known

it detaches from the world

and falls through the sky

searching

searching

please don't leave me

it won't come back and my panic is too great for me to bear

emotions fill my eyes and blood coats my teeth

i don't know if it's real

i don't know what i am

i'm lost

thinking deeply

and i just want to dance

i say hell to my brain and my mind

and myself

i dance and i am thrown back into chaos

please don't leave me

i can't keep my balance and my body is too small

i can't get off the ground

i am in limbo between falling for the trick

and staying safe in my truth

i don't know what to believe

is anything real?

do you know who i am?

please don't leave me

i just want to dance