If I Were A Boy (Lesbian)

chapter 3

Chapter 3

(Who Better To Be In Love With)

                I woke up the next morning on her couch to the sound of a phone ringing in the next room. It was Josh. It had to be he’s the only person who would call someone at freaking 8 in the morning. He had woken me up 2 days in a row now and aside from the fact that I already hated him that made my distain for him so much stronger. I had a horrible head ach and the phone was still ringing. She wasn’t going to wake up and answer it so I tiptoed in to her room picked up the phone and put it to my ear. “Hello” I heard his raspy voice sound in my ear like a siren defiantly not helping with the head ach. “Shhhh!” I shot at him as I walked out of the room and pulled the door closed. “Kyler?”

“Yes”

“Hey what are you doing over there?”

“I spent the night dumb ass. What do you want?”

“Umm is Abby there?”

“She’s sleeping, and so was I for that matter.”

“Oh hey I’m sorry did I wake you up?”

“For the second fucking day in a row yes.”

“Oh ok well go back to sleep tell her to call me when she gets up.”

                I hung up with out a good bye. He was such an ass but he was a nice ass if you understand that. He had ups and downs, and when he was on an up he was a great guy but when he was on a down he was a piece of shit that treated Abby like crap and I hated him. ‘Oh shit Abby!’ I had kissed Abby last night. What would this mean? Would she be different? I hoped not. I mean she wanted to kiss me too right? It wasn’t all just me, and Josh! I mean I didn’t like the guy but she was his girlfriend none the less. So she had cheated on him. With me. I couldn’t help but feel like a terrible person.

                                                        ….3 hours later….

                She would have slept all day if she could have but I was bored so I slammed her door open and jumped on her bed. She flew up and glared at me. “Kyler! Let me sleep!” She scolded pulling the covers up over her head and laying back down. So I pulled the covers off the bed. She cussed me out a little bit but the moment I said coffee she was up. I went to leave the room while she got ready so I stood up off the bed but was stopped by her arms being wrapped around my waist. I looked down at her and she smiled up at me. My heart went flying. My palms were sweating and it appeared that our relationship wouldn’t under go a hard down fall because it looked like she really did want me to. I could only hope that was it. “Ky” she said in that soft way that made me want to just hold her. “Will you kiss me?” I was smiling from ear to ear and any thoughts of Josh and there relationship were gone. I bent down and lifted her chin with my fingers placing my lips on hers softly. I felt my knees shake like the were going to go out from under me so I sad down beside her never braking the kiss.

                When she pulled back I saw her breath taking green eyes lock on mine.  She smiled as wide as she could and placed a hand on my thigh. “I love you.” Was all I could say. I meant it. With ever fiber of my being I loved that girl. I’d have walked through fire if that would have meant she would have been mine if only for a day. She giggled and all the sudden my mind when to dark places. Josh had cheated on her yes but until last night Josh had been the only guy she hadn’t cheated on. I felt like a horrible person once again and I know it reflected in my eyes because she looked at me confused and tilted her head to the left. “What’s wrong?” She asked truly confused about why I wouldn’t be over the moon. I inhaled deeply and looked done at her hand still no my thigh. “Josh called this morning.” I whispered. I closed my eyes at I felt her hand retract. “Oh” she crossed her arms over her chest and looked over at the wall. “W-what did he want?” She had stuttered. Why would she stutter? She was good at having multiple relationships normally they didn’t intersect though. 

                “He wanted to talk to you.” I admitted. “I told him you were asleep.” She clenched her teeth. I bit my lip and nodded my head trying my hardest to hold back tears. I know that if I had to talk my voice would crack and give me away. “Do you want to talk about last night?” She whispered. I just shook my head no. “Are you sure? Because we can if you need to.” She stressed. When I didn’t answer she took my hands in hers. “Ky I never want to hurt you. If I did I’m so sorry!” “Why?” Was all I could say. “Why what Ky?” I closed my eyes again. “Why would you kiss me Abby?” I bit the inside of my check. “I mean your straight and you have a boyfriend and you’re just too good for me in general so why would you have kissed me?” She squeezed my hands. “I am not too good for you Kyler.” My chin started to quiver. “If anything I’m not good enough for you.” My eyes shot open exposing to her how watery they were. “What?” I breathed out. “I’m not good enough for you Ky. You have loved me our entire lives and kept your mouth shut so that I could have a life. You haven’t had a girlfriend and the one boyfriend you had was Adam and he’s gay and so are you so it’s not like he counts.” The tears were falling but not only from my face. From hers as well.

                I wasn’t able to do anything through the entire talk except listen to her and by the end of it I wasn’t read to talk about how I felt so I had Grant come pick me up while she called Josh. Once Grant and I finally left her house he wanted to know what was wrong so I told him. I wasn’t in the mood to lie and he was my best friend so he should accept me….right? He was quite while I explained it all. How I’d felt for so long, what happened with her mom, what happened with her and by the time I was almost done he was smiling. That actually confused me because for as long as I could remember he’d been in love with her too. So I stopped talking and he just looked over at me. “Kyler you a flaming lesbian and I’ve always known that.” He laughed. “And it would take a fool to not be able to see that you’re in love with Abby.” He stated looking back at the road. “Yeah I know that’s why I thought you didn’t know.” I mused pocking him in the side causing him to jump and the car to swerve. 

                “Do you love her?” I asked and everything was suddenly serous. He was quite for a little while. By the look on his face the wheels in his head were spinning looking for something to say. “I do.” He finally said. “But-I’ve never thought that she and I would work out.” I arched my eye brows. “Why?” I asked crossing my arms and staring at him intently.  “Because” he said simply. “I was always convinced you’d end up with her.”

                                                          …..At his house….

                We didn’t speak the entire car ride and now we were sitting on his bed watching some info martial that neither of us cared about. “For the recoded.” I said watching him stiffen up on the other side of the bed. “I’m sure you and her would have worked out.” He snickered but I could tell it wasn’t a real laugh. “And why would you think that?” I looked away from him. “Because you are such an amazing guy and any girl would be lucky to have you.” He smiled out of the corner of his mouth when I looked back out him. His hair was only a little shorter then mine and it was sandy blond, his eyes where a beautiful green. He had the second most beautiful pair of eyes I’d every seen.  He was tall and thin. By most girls standards he was very attractive. “Now Ky” he started. “You are a beautiful girl.” I didn’t believe that but ok. “And you’re so loving and kind hearted. There isn’t a person out there who wouldn’t be lucky to have you.” That made me smile which was more then likely his goal.

                “I just don’t think she and I will work out Grant.” That was true. I never believed in us. “Why is that?” He asked hugging me. “Because she’s with Josh.” He huffed. “Josh will be gone sooner or later.” That was probably true. “But she’s straight.” I countered that with. “She’s kissed you right? Does that sound very straight to you?” He said smugly. I pulled back to look at him. “What if she doesn’t want me?” He took a deep breath. “She’ll want you.” He sounded sure of it. “How do you know?” He looked distant. “Because you’re her best friend. Who better to be in love with?”

Grant is actully a mix between to of my best friends Charlie and Garret. So he was cool to write. Thanks for reading :D