With You... Always

Love At First Sight

- I woke up like every other day, not knowing what my future held for me.

I was getting ready in the bathroom until I almost fell out of my chair when I heard my boyfriend yelling, he was definitely early I thought.
"Regina!!" Robin yelled. "It's getting late can't you see?"', "I'm coming I'll be there in a second", I replied kinda scared. That day I was going to meet his parents and I didn't want to, I already met his dad once and I almost threw up but meeting his whole family is going to be nerve wrecking, and my anxiety is not helping.
I've been thinking about breaking up with Robin for months now but I didn't know if it was the right thing to do, he is manipulative and gets very angry at little things. Maybe it's normal but I don't know, I don't have a lot of friends specially because college hasn't started, it's starting in 1 week or so and my parents and my sister live in Spain so I don't have many resources to get advice from.
"Regina!!, why do you take so long to get ready, you look the same either way so it doesn't matter!" He yelled from the living room of my apartment.
"I'm coming!" I said rushing towards the door.

We left and called an uber, I could feel the anger from him when we got in, he was raging. So my dumb mind decided to ask, "Are you okay?", "Do I seem okay to you?!" He yelled and the driver almost stopped, he looked scared but not as much as I was because I had to live with this piece of trash.
When the thought of him being trash touched my mind I realized that I didn't want to be with him anymore, but then also thought about how my parents would react or his parents would react, they seemed very engaged in our relationship as well as excited. Plus it felt too late to do it. We've been dating for almost 5 years now. That's a scary thought to formulate, 5 years, damn, I can't remember why in the first place.
After a 10 minute car drive that seemed like 10 hours we arrived at the house.
"Hello!, come on in" his dad said with a smile, which was weird, he always seemed angry to me. His mom was in the living room , "Hello!" She said with a weird and creepy smile, we greeted each other and then went to the dining room to eat, it was a big house with lots of rooms and stuff, they had a lot of money although I didn't care about that, I started dating Robin because he was very sweet at the beginning and took care of me when I felt lonely because my parents moved to Spain, he changed though.
We ate and had minimal conversation, it was a living nightmare, I hated every second of it.
    Then something happened that I wished it never did, I was alone after dinner with his mom and she asked the worst question she could of possibly asked at that moment. "So, umm Regina, are you planning to marry my son?, I mean you've been dating him since high school and you're starting college and I hope you are not just messing around with him", oh no I thought so I made up an answer which again I wished I never did. "Well life could take me in different paths but I think I might marry Robin". She got up and hugged me so tight I wanted to die at that very moment, I just lifted her hopes up, oh no, he might propose soon because she might tell him, oh no. She kept yelling which was terrible or squeaking more like. "Good Lord!" She kept saying. Another thing, I was atheist and they were very Christian, they think I am too, why? I don't know.
The night ended and I decided to take the bus home alone because Robin and his dad got very drunk so he stayed at his parents house. I can't believe his parents let him do that, he always does it. That's it I'm definitely breaking up with him, I thought to myself.

             So after that long night I went to the bus station, I waited there for about 20 minutes until a person sat next to me, it was a girl, she had short straight blonde hair and was wearing a big dark coat, god she was beautiful I thought, wow. She took of her coat and then I realized she was wearing a KoRn shirt, my favorite band, oh yes!, no one in my previous city, well at least in my town or well high school knew of them. So I decided to start talking to her. I was very nervous.
"Hey! Nice shirt" I said kinda awkwardly, she turned around and looked at me with beautiful bluish eyes, "Oh my god!, you like KoRn too?" She said with a beautiful smile. "Yes! They are my favorite band!", "No way! They are one of my favorite bands too!". We talked about their music for a while until the bus finally came. We sat next to each other because we really wanted to keep talking. "So may I ask where your stop is?" I said more calmed down, "uhh well I live in this apartment complex called The River I don't know if you've heard of it, it's usually for people who are going to the Music College that's right next to it called MI". Oh my god I couldn't believe it, I lived there too and I'm going to the same college. "Of course I know where that is, that's my stop too! I live in that apartment complex! And go to MI!" I said kinda cool so she wouldn't notice I was screaming internally. "No way! I guess we can keep talking more!"
"Sure why not!" I started to sound more excited, which I was.

        We got off the bus and I accompanied her to her apartment, she invited to come inside but I told her that it was getting late, and that maybe I could help her unpack some other day to get to know each other better, she gave me her phone number and I left.
I went to my apartment half regretting the decision I had made earlier. But I felt weird I had never felt like this before, is it love?, is it attraction?, love at first sight doesn't exist Regina! I started talking to myself and I rambled on in my mind with many questions I had.
Am I bisexual or gay? No! I'm definitely straight.  Or at least I thought so...