DeZire

Part 1

i hate you 

i just hate myself more for loving you

did i heard right? he .he loved me

arnavji loved me 

standing infront of her is not the ASR she had known

there was something in his eyes

pain...... pain .coz ..coz he loved her

arnavji..she tried to call him but her voice was inaudible  coz of her sobs

he stood there realising what he had exactly done.

damn....!

turning away from her he took his car and left as soon as he can leaving her broken who still tried to stop him.

not able to control her tears she just slumped on the road seeing how the things have changed from past few hours

arnav was driving in his car

nothing was able to control his anger

neither the rash driving nor the ragged breathe............

his knuckles were turning white coz of the pressure he is getting from holding the steering

he really loved me?

yes kushi he did love you...she whispered 

he did love you

the way he saved me in his guest house when it was collapsing

the way he saved from the car during the rain

the way he said sorry when he came to know about my parents

the way he behaved after knowing that i am engaged

the diwali events

the way he behaved during payash celebrations

the kiss

their dance

the contract marriage

his stay in gupta house

and finally the confession

everything shouts only one thing and that is his love for her

though the thought of him accusing her wrenched her heart she started smiling with the tears in her eyes for knowing that her feelings were equally reciprocated by him

arnav was not able to comprehend what to do

stopping his car he got out of it pacing on the road

with a thud he sat on his knees with his welled up eyes

though according to him everything which happened was damn true but still he doen't know why he is feeling so bad.

what if .what if she does something to herself?

SHIT!

he took his car taking a U  turn he drove to his destination

seeing her still there crying her heart out 

his heart started to ache but he is happy to see her fine 

he stopped the car infront of her

due to the sudden screech of the break she jerked and saw him walking towards her

get in kushi

there she just smiled looking at him understanding his concern which he always tries to mask it 

she obeyed his words and silently got into the car

he was quite surprised looking at her composure

but still he felt thankful for avoiding her non-stop-no-sense questions

soon they went to the gupta house

wiping her dried up cheeks she go down from the car and went towards her home

buaji: hey khushi..where were you? what did u do that arnav babua just ran away from this house. you cat even behave properly

kushi:offo buaji ntg has happened till now. but yeah we should go back to raizada manison today

and thats when arnav enetered

buaji's face turned sad all of a sudden

garima:why kushi ? did we not host you properly

kushi: dont think like that maa . you were too gud . none of the people would have taken care of us like you. its just arnavji's presence is required in RM. these days only jiju is taking care of the office work , it becomes hectic for him so arnavji wants to leave .

buaji and garima  were convinced with her reason

buaji:arnav babua could u just wait for few minutes. i have some things to be packed for everyone in RM.

arnav:sure buaji

garima:kushi ....u help buaji i will give these medicies to ur father and come

kushi:okay amma

arnav thought of calling her but failed to do again

inside their room

what the fuck i am doing? she is the on who was wrong and here i am trying to mend up everything. atleast she should have said something. 

kushi came inside their room and he immediately held her arms locking the door

arnav:what the hell u think about urself kushi kumari gupta

she stood there in his arms looking at him

kushi:what should i tell arnavji

arnav:you owe me an explanation kushi

gupta:why are u asking now mr raizada. after all these days why are u asking now

arnav:dont raise your voi.........

buaji interrupted them knocking the door

kushi:ha buaji coming

she left him taking back the things for which she came in

finally it was the time to leave

garima:kushi give those presents to everyone and do tell them that we asked about them.

kushi:ha amma . u dont worry about that

buaji:sanka devi do behave properly . u are not a kid . remember that u r a wife to someone and a daughter in law , dont forget ur responsibilities

kushi:offo dont worry buaji. if i really cant manage i will just take a divorce from ur damadji and then u can take care of me

everyone were shocked looking at her especially arnav

garima started crying

garima:khu..kushi

kushi:amma i was just kidding.  you still believed me now even after what i said yesterday

he remembers the way she described about him stating that he is the best husband anyone can get.

buaji slapped slightly on her

buaji:dont you know how to speak properly. you consider all these things funny?

wishing bests for each other they waved gudbyes to each other