Here I am waking up, still can't sleep on your side.
There's your coffee cup, the lipstick stain fades with time.
If I can dream long enough, you'd tell me I'd be just fine.
I'll be just fine.
You used to tell me that we could be together forever. I used to believe you. All those plans we made for us, they seemed so reachable. I thought we had the future in front of us. We just had to stretch our hands and we could touch it. What happened to that ?
Now.... now I'm in our room alone.
All around me, there are reminders of you. Everywhere. But not only objects. There are memories. Everytime I close my eyes, I can see you, see your smile and your bright eyes that had me under their spell.
I can't have a proper night of sleep anymore without you. I got so used to you cuddling me, or taking all of the blankets for yourself. I can't sleep without it. I can't sleep without you.
But when the exhaustion takes over, it's almost worse. I swear I can see you. Like a gardian angel watching over me in my dreams. I can feel your hand on my cheek, I can feel your arms around me.
I just miss you, you know.
So I drown it out like I always do,
Dancing through our house with the ghost of you.
And I chase it down with a shot of truth,
Dancing through our house with the ghost of you.
All of my friends, they all tell me that I should try to let go, move on. But it's only been months. Is it not normal to still feel this empty ?
I swear, I'm trying to get over you. I'm trying my hardest. But there's you in everything I do. I know you wouldn't want me to stay sad because of you. I know that. But how could I not, when all of my happiest memories are involving you ? You were my source of happiness. And my happiness is gone with you. But I don't blame you, I could never. This is just me pitying myself. I'm not angry at you, I could never be.
I just wish I was enough to make you happy.
Cleaning up today, found that old Zeppelin shirt
You wore when you ran away, and no one could feel your hurt.
We're too young, too dumb to know things like love.
But I know better now, better now.
We were so young, I always thought that we would be the most beautiful story out there, the kind of fairytale we would read about when we were kids. I thought we would have the eternity for ourselves. Early in our story, I thought you would be the greatest lover I would find, and now I know you are and always will be the love of my life.
You told me everything about your parents. I was so sad you had to go through that, and so mad at them for hurting you. But I didn't pity you. I knew you hated that. Instead, I started letting it go, like you did years before when you ran away. I thought loving you was a better alternative to anger anyway. And the best thing is, you loved me back.
So why did you do it ?
So I drown it out, like I always do,
Dancing through our house with the ghost of you.
And I chase it down with a shot of truth,
Dancing through our house with the ghost of you.
The moment I knew we would last, was when we moved out together. We had our own place, and it would have been you and I forever. We used to do everything together. We were inseparable. It's funny, I remember clearly that one time when I decided to go downtown, but you wanted a lazy day so you stayed at home. Everyone that I knew who saw me was so surprised to see me alone.
Now, being alone is my normalcy. But I never wanted it to be.
Too young
Too dumb
To know things like love
Too young
Too dumb
I've had my fair share of relationships. I thought I was in love back then. But when I was with you, I swear to God and every single thing up there, you were the only one that made me feel real. It was like, all feelings before, everything that I knew, was muted before I met you. I thought I knew love, but heaven knows how wrong I was. I only knew love when I was with you.
And I know I'll never find a love like yours ever again.
So I drown it out like I always do
Dancing through our house with the ghost of you
And I chase it down with a shot of truth
That my feet don't dance like they did with you.
I know you'd want me to move on. You used to tell me that I deserved better. And I'd always say that nothing was better than you. I still stand by that statement. Nothing will ever be as good as you. Nothing will ever shine as bright as your smile. Nothing will ever be more a home than you. I just wish you could have seen that. I wish you were more happy. I wish you could have believed me when I told you all that. I wish you were still here with me. I wish I could tell you I loved you again. I wish I could hold you again. I wish you were still alive.
Oh Darling, why did you have to go ?
