angel; wolfhard

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JULY 30...
THIRD PERSON

finn looked out at the gloomy sky as him and his family made their way to the funeral. it just so happens to be ugly weather for the day he dreaded very much. he felt his lips beginning to wobble as they pulled up.

nick wrapped his arm around his brother."im here for you brother. you got this."

finn attempted to smile but failed as he sobbed on his brother's dress shirt. they walked up to everyone as they all stood in a circle. angel's mother was the first to see him which she's immediately embraced him with a hug.

"she wouldn't want to see us like this, especially you." angel's mother whispered with tears streaming down her eyes. finn still hadn't spoken.

he went up to his cast members. they all made small talk but finn remained silent. he didn't want to talk to anyone.

the service began and the casket was nicely placed next to the podium. finn's breathe hitched as they slowly opened it.

he didn't want to see her.

he suddenly heard sophia's cries. it broke him even more. he hated seeing all of his friends breaking.

finn sat way in the back, still not wanting to see the open black casket. it'll make him go crazy.

lilly and rex were first to go up, then her parents, and after was wyatt which made finn the last. as they talked they cried of course.

"now words from her wonderful boyfriend, finn wolfhard." angel's mother softly said.

finn wasn't ready at all. he didn't speak to anyone since he found out.

finn's mother gave him a light squeeze. finn slowly walked up and sighed. he grabbed the wrinkled up paper from his pocket.

he cleared his throat and looked at everyone before he began.

"hello everyone." his raspy voice said. "for those of you don't know im finn wolfhard, the boyfriend of the most gorgeous girl i knew." his voice cracked.

stay calm finn. he thought.

he looked down at the paper and sighed.

"im not going to read off this stupid paper because it's not everything i want to say." he spoke on the microphone. "it's only been a week and i can't take this. you may think im a stupid kid and i don't know what love is but i do. angel showed me with love is. she was the most loveable person i know and i have no idea how im going to live without her by my side." he paused as he felt the tears.

"im so lucky that i fell in love with someone like her. no one has cared for me as much as she did. she was my best friend and girlfriend and that's honestly the best thing i can ask for. the last time i talked to her was before her flight. she said 'goodbye my love'in the softest voice ever. i can't believe she's actually gone because of that fucking plane." he sobbed.

finn's mother ran to him and tried to get him off the podium. he pulled away and continued.

"i just want her back." he cried. finn took a deep breath and wiped his tears away even though more came down.

he bent down and grab her ukulele." i know this isn't some musical or anything but i would like to sing a song. a beautiful song that she sang to me herself." he slightly smiled as he remembered her voice.

"i uh learned this all week while being locked in my room as i attempted to forget but this only made me remember her more."

finn began to play la vie en rose as he tried to get it right.

finn's, not so fluent french, began singing. everyone cried as he played. he closed his eyes still thinking about how angel sang it so fluently.

just like angel did it, he switched to english.

finn looked up and sang."when you kiss me, heaven sighs and although i close my eyes, i see la vie en rose."

more tears streamed down. all he wanted was to be with her.

"and when you speak, angels sing from above. everyday words seem to turn into love songs. give your heart and soul to me and life will be la vie en rose." he softly finished but immediately began sobbing with his mouth covered.

"thank you. angel, if you can hear me then baby, i love you so much and i'll never stop. stay gorgeous, my love." he said with his eyes close. everyone softly clapped.

one the corner of his eye he saw her casket. he took the millionth deep breathe and quickly looked which broke his into billions of pieces.

that wasn't angel. that wasn't his girlfriend.

finn ran to wyatt as they cried together.

"i miss her so much wy." finn said.

wyatt sobbed."me too, buddy, me too."

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finn slammed his door and immediately went on his bed. he sighed as he looked at his ceiling.

his mind traced back to may 3. the day he first met her in person.

"you're like breathtaking." he said.

he smiled at the thought of it. he was so nervous that day, it was the only thing that came out. he remembered how awkward she was but he didn't care.

then it went to the first time they kissed, may 15.

"i just had my first kiss." she mumbled.

his eyes became watery. he'd kill to get a single kiss from her lips again. then his memory wandered to december 22.

"baby, i know you're confused as fuck right now but i just wanted to say that i love you."

it was the first time they said 'i love you' to each other at the calpurina concert. by now he was crying again.

"finn, i love you too."

finn closed his eyes and sobbed on his pillow. he clutched on it as he screamed. slowly he stopped when he started getting the hiccups. finn checked the time.

11:11pm.

"i wish you were here." he said as he stared at his lockscreen of them two laughing.

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a/n
i think my heart hurts