Our Dirty Secret 😶

leaving you

Dakota ❤️
Since the testing incident with rashawn I been keeping my distance from him resisting him, after a while I thought about it like this is the same boy who killed my best friend there was no way me and him would ever work. Soon as I came walking out of my dorm kameron was standing there waiting.
"Dakota."
"I don't want to talk about shit " I said locking my door before walking away.
She followed me all way down the staircase trying to plead her case.
"Dakota can't you just stop being childish for a second and talk "
I stood at the bottom of the steps faceing her with my arms crossed.
"What.. about the fact that were all in this shit because of you and you want us to work around and pretend like shit is all flowers and candy "
"No ,but I heard about you and rashawn."
"That's nun of your business "
"I'm just looking out for you Kota ,chase overheard rashawn and the team talking bout you being a virgen "
My heart started beating fast but my mind being flustered was more antagonizing. I walked away but I turned back facing her while she stood on the bottom step.
" Since we looking out for each other instead of you watching what I do maybe you should be watching your best friend nova" I said before storming out of the building. I know that hit home for kameron because even she knew that there was something that wasn't right with Chase. But I had a bigger fish to fry how could rashawn do that why would he tell them that? why is he even talking about me at all.
I was supposed to be going to the library but I had to make a quick detour.
After banging on the door for several minutes the door finally open and a darkskin girl came out of the room, then came this bastard
"Rashawn why did you tell them my buisness "
He grabbed my hand pulling me inside and locking the door.
"What is you talking about?"
"You told the team about me being a virgen ! " I yelled
"Kota why would I tell the team about you being a virgen how is that even something to tell. "
"Because that's what you do ! Y'all fuck girls then talk about it later and speaking of you running behind me but you got bitches leaving your room and shit.
"Who told you? "
"That's not-"
"Who told you I told the team you were a virgen ?"
"Kameron !"
He laughed plopping down in his desk chair.
" Out of all the people on this campus and you chose to listen to kameron.your friend kameron can't even keep her own relationship under control"
Laughing manically his laughter turned to anger in seconds .
"I'm not finna keep going on circles with you Kota , I got bigger shit to worry so if you don't wanna fuck with me leave ! " He said standing up getting in my face.
"Your exactly what I thought you were "
I was telling the truth ! He always quick to say he aint like what other people say but yet here we are.
"If so why you come here ? "
"Fuck you ! " I yelled getting into his face.
I couldn't lie though what he said was mkaing since why would that even be a topic for them to discuss because not even me and rashawn talked about it much.
Starring in his eyes he started back in mines with anger and fustration.
I don't know what I was doing but I did something.
I put my bag down and kissed his lips long and hard, it took a while for him to process what was going on but he didn't care he just went along with it.
Getting more into the kissed he wrapped his hands under my ass cheeks and squezzed them. I wasn't used to being touched like that. I know right dont sound to good coming from a 21 year old .
With our lips still locked he sat my body on top of his dresser and pushed everything else on to the floor.
I didn't know what was happening I just went with the flow but whatever it was I wanted it. I wanted it bad and it seems so wrong because of what he did to my best friend but I still wanted this n wanted it with the same person who killed her.
He pulled my underwear down and lifted my dress pulling his own pants down.
Before I knew it a wave of life took over my body, it was painful because this was my first real sexual experience but it was a good pain.
I made a slsshing noise while he went in deeper.
"You want me to stop ?" He whispered slidding out a little.
"No "
I wrapped my legs around his waist and continued our kiss while fucked me on top of his desk.
For the first time in my life I felt free the way my body felt was amazing who knew sex with the wrong person could make you feel like this.
My body started tingling and tightning, before I knew it my eyes were rolling and my legs shaking I couldn't believe it I was having an orgasm.
He let out a moan of satisfaction joining me. 
He both were breathing hard rested our forheads against each other's. We both didn't k ow what to say we just just looked I each other's eyes until I slid down off his desk.
I put my panties back on and started grabbing my things and without a word I walk out of his dorm not sure of what just happen.
Walking out of the boys building I couldn't help but notice destiny's room light being on from the girls building.
Standing outside I watched shadows move across the wall.
Why would anybody be in destiny's room ?
With the sounds of my heels clicking I rushed towards the girls hall and headed up to her room.
"Nova ?"
She jerked at the sound of my voice then took a deep breath.
"Girl you scared me "
"Why are you in destiny's room ?"
"I lended her a shirt of mines and I need it tonight " she lied
I could tell she was lieng Nova always been bad at it she was looking for something else but what.
"Okay I'll help look what does it look like ?" I asked starting to go through her drawers.
"A pink crop top "
Another lie because destiny hated pink. Digging through her dressers my fingers ran across something smooth but dry.
An envople ?
It didn't have a name on it but it had old wet stains as if someone had been crying while writting.
I opened it and u folded and notebook lined paper that was ripped out

      "Dakota'
If yore reading this make sure your alone first ! It's about nova and Riley . Dakota' I'm telling you this because I love you. Please watch your back.
          - love destiny

I stuffer the note in my pocket and continued pretending to look for the shirt.
What did destiny mean by that ? What is she talking about. I didn't know but I was gonna find out.
Hold the hell on ! I had to make sure I read that right I snuck back over to the dresser and peeked at the note again
October the 21st ?? That's the day after destiny died ! Destiny's alive ?