Crying had become apart of my daily life my mother just banters and banters.
Suicidal thoughts are becoming something like the best dream i had, is it sad that I thought about dying daily ? I had though of all the ways I could die and what I should use to do the job. me and Lynn aren't together anymore so I would not feel guilty if I permanently disappear she would hurt nobody would.
I had a set plan on when I would end it all August 14 just like that and I would finally get away from the pain finally get away from being in pain from everything just Free.
Goodbye Lynn , I love you.
Goodbye mother I won't blame you but I hope your happy.
Goodbye Pain I'm finally free.
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I'm not going to give her or any one that satisfaction of seeing me lying in a coffin going six feet under or my ashes being spread along a beach somewhere.
No that's one satisfaction they won't get I was trying to find a reason to live but I didn't find any but I realized that I was trying hard enough I was just finding a way to finish myself off, then I though of all the people I want to save being a police or a nurse my reason to be alive is what I want it to be and I realized I have yet to save a live so I'm not giving up that easy that was my reason to stay alive people who are worst off than I am people who are weaker and can't ask for help like I did when those want to hurt me.
That was my reason to stay alive, to breathe, to help the world my reason was and still is, people.
And I wasn't going to let them down no matter what because they didn't ask for this, no one did. that why I wanted to be someone who help that's why I wanted to be. Their
savior
Their sheriff
Their knight in shining armor
Their gladiator.
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MY WONDERFUL BLUE (Lesbian stories)
Teen FictionA girl found love on a site called WATTPAD, follow her as she journeys to the land of love, friendship and reading.
