Unforgettable | M.Y.G

Chapter 4: Letters

Chapter4:Letters

"You never know anything until you read the final chapter."

When I woke up the next day, I was already in bed. I was confused that how did i end up in my room. As I turned my sight here and there, I saw a letter besides me with a beautiful red rose on top of it.
It read,
"I'm glad you had a beautiful dream".

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I was blushing and clunged the letter close to my heart. Finally, I was having happy dreams.
That following afternoon, I was writing about all my days i spent with him in my diary, I wanted to save those memories, every moment of it.
I had decided to surprise him that day by saying him 'I love you' and kiss him on his cheeks that day. I wanted to have a proper date, a proper confession. It is no wonder that we were already very much in love but I had not told him yet those magic words. It is every girl's dream to hold a proper date, to be told that they are loved and be kissed softly on their cheeks. I wanted that too. I wasn't willing to wait for him to do that. We were both equally in love, so it didn't matter who did it.
I had saved a dress for that day, a beautiful one. It took me one hour to get ready, checking my appearance every five minutes. I wanted to look perfect for him.
[C]As soon as I got ready, I went to the riverside, he always spent his evening time there looking at that endless river.
I went there blushing, wanting to surprise him by holding him from the back.
[C]He was not there. I searched some more, still I couldn't find him. I was confused.
"Why isn't he here?may be I should look at the other places too", I said to myself and ran towards the orchid area. He was not there.
I looked behind every tree, I shouted his name loud "suga! Suga! Where are you? Won't you see me today? I got all ready for you."
I didn't get any answer. I was running from place to place, checking every possible place he could be in. I didn't know his address, his place. I was lost. Lost in my hopeless search. My feet were getting tired. By this time, I had already searched for 3 hours. My dress was all dirty. I was barely able to walk but still I wanted to search till my last ounce of energy.
It was already evening and was getting dark. I could search no longer. I had prepared so much for him yet I couldn't find him. Silent tears rolled down my cheeks.
I shouted one last time"Suga! Suga! Meet me! Meet me! I miss you, I want to tell you that I love you. Tell me where should I find you, where should I?" My voice was begining to choke. My energy less and hopeless body fell on the ground, I was tired, I wanted his comfort. I couldn't move for the next one hour. My mind was blank, I was trapped in a black hole. No exit.
After one hour, I forced my body to walk towards home. Aimlessly my legs moved, my feet getting hit against the pebbles. I was all bruised.
The physical pain was nothing compared to the pain I was feeling deep down. I finally reached home and involuntary my body fell on the bed. Fatigue and pain had consumed me. As I turned my side on the bed, and shifted my face towards my table, I saw a letter placed on it. I was too afraid to open it, god knows what would be inside.
But I had to, my brain said no, my heart said yes.
I opened the letter, it was from him.
My hands were trembling, it read,

"Don't go searching for me like that, I don't like you getting hurt. Even if you search me now, you won't be able to find me. I am not whole, not even pieces, I am in fragraments. My ashes have long been blown by the wind. I left myself as much as I could do in your heart. Won't you find me there? Of all the places you searched, you forgot to search there first. I can't hug you anymore, can't kiss you, can't listen to your voice or can't see your face. I will miss your warmth, your comfort. I am going to be all cold, rot in hell.
Dear, I wish we had time, I wanted to love you more, see your face some more, I hadn't enough of it. Why did I have to die? I wanted to live but my existence is past now, past two years. I traded my soul to hell, to wait for you two years, until you found me there, on that lonely riverside. I wanted to tell you what I couldn't tell you then, that I love you, I wanted to kiss you because I loved you so much. I am in your memories, you are in mine,
I love you."
I couldn't even cry now. It hurt so much I couldn't resist. My heart pained so much, I was in so much pain, like someone was snatching my soul from me.
I couldn't cry I tell you, I couldn't.
"If you are dead, if you a ghost, haunt me, haunt me then, kill me, ruin me, choke me, but don't leave me, don't leave me somewhere I can't find you. I can'ttt.... "my voice chocked from crying.
"Take me with you to hell, I can't live in this darkness where I can't even see your face, suga...aa... Suga.. Haunt me, I say haunt me." I thrust my heart. I was ready to die.
I was crying all night that day, all night. My mind didn't work. That one man, whom I couldn't stay away for a day even, how was I going to live an entire long life without?. I wish he had hugged me one last time, I would've saved that warmth in me, I would have held him until I got tired.
I was staring again at the empty space. I was as same as a lunatic, a wanderer, a lost soul.
Just then. my eyes fell on a notebook, it was titled 'Unforgettable'. I opened to see that, and found this written,
"Every moment you shall relive again, I want to return all the memories you forgot. You won't have any strange dreams after this, because your memories shall be complete now."
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"It started like this,
Unforgettable:Our past
(Suga's p.o.v.)
That day. all the people were gathered along the riverside to watch the paper lantern show. Do you remember? I wish you did. It was so beautiful, the whole sky was filled with them, I sat there sitting on the sand, watching them. Then you came, sat near me. You hadn't noticed me then. You were so beautiful that day, like an angel. I fell for you the moment I saw you, I only fell for you more after we started to spend time together. Your lovely eyes were fixated on that sky, that crimson sky. I said 'Aren't these beautiful?'wanting to demand your attention. You smiled and said yes. I was awestruck.
We met again at the forest path when you said you were going to catch butterflies. You were such a kid! I loved your innocence. We chatted a lot that day, and you said you liked my friendship, we started to meet more. You snuck out then too, to meet me. I had fallen hard for you by then. Then, one night, I decided to tell you that I loved you, that I wanted to be more than a friend. I invited you to that wooden bridge. You came all dressed up. I was so happy. I was really. Then suddenly that bridge started to break. We were in the middle. We ran as fast as we could but couldn't reach. I fell, you fell with me too. I wish I had never invited you there, I wish I hadn't. Those riverside people were able to save you but not me. I was drowned to death. They found my body only after 2 days and then burnt me. You lost your memories from the shock. i wanted to live very much, I wanted to. Destiny didn't permit me. To tell you that I loved you I sold my soul to hell. I waited for you the year after that. You never came. I'm glad I got to see you this year. I had asked for two years, my time's up now. Whenever you miss me, just place your hand on your heart, I am there. No one can take me from there, no one can separate that feeling we mutually hold, not even death.
I love you dear Y/N. I love you."
That notebook entry ended.
The following days were spent in grief, I was half dead. I couldn't eat or sleep. My mind and heart were not at ease. So much discomfort. I stopped meeting with people.
I repeatedly went near the riverside, that orchid, all those places where we spent our time together. Everything was same, those winds in the afternoon, that star filled sky, that lonely river, only you were gone. I still search for your traces, your existence, I want to believe that was a dream, that was all a lie, you are still by my side and I could hold you like I used to do.
You are still here in my dreams, I can meet you again once I close my eyes.
I can't forget you, because to me, you are unforgettable.

🍂The end🍂

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