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Chapter 10

This chapter is special, it's on Jay's P.O.V., so don't get confused ;)

'Bey, you know your father always hated me'

'And that gives you the excuse to kill him?!' she said madly

'No, no it doesn't, but it wasn't like this'

'Then how was it?'

'Are you gonna listen to me? You never actually gave me the chance to explain...'

'I don't remember everything that happened so yeah, go on...'

'Ok, well, I'll explain from the start...' I took a deep breath a continued 'The first time I met your father we weren't dating, but even then I realized he didn't like me... And then when we started dating, I wanted to impress him, because I notice how much he meant for you and everything, but it was hard.'

'Honey, what are you talking about?'

'He hated me, no matter what I tried to do, I tried really hard to get him to like me, you know? For you'

'I know, I know, but...'

'Let me finish' I said putting my hand on her lips 'I was humiliated hundreds of times by him, even in front of my friends. He used to shove it off my face that I used to be a drug dealer, that I was no good or worthy of your love. Something that I already feared...'

'That you were not worthy of my love, Jay... You were always worth it!' I held her face with my both hands because I was tired of her interrupting me, but I gave her a kiss for what she had said.

'And then... There was our wedding' When I said that she looked down, that she knew what had happened. When we went to Tina's birthday party on 2008 with the news that we were engaged I saw the look on her father's face and I also heard them talking. Something about him not wanting us to get married, he said that she was promised to another guy, Lyndell or something, that he truly liked.. But she said that she loved me and that she was marrying me either he liked or not.

He didn't like it. He didn't show up to the wedding either. Bey and her father had a lot troubles during their relationship, they used to fight a lot and most times I caught her crying it wasn't because of me, but because of him. I started to grow this hate feeling for him, I couldn't stand the guy anymore.

After Bey ''fired'' him as her manager their relationship was awful. They didn't talk at all, she tried to call him a few times, he wouldn't answer most of the calls, but when he did answer, he treated her coldly. I understand his pride was hurt, but she was still his daughter, I think he didn't understand that. They only recovered their relationship after Blue was born, he was all over us, including myself. Well of course Blue was the reason for the whole Carter/Knowles family happiness, but it didn't last long enough.

When Blue turned two years old we learned the hard truth from Matthew: He had another family, not just a chick on the side, but a whole family. A girl almost as old as Bey, a Boy two years younger than Bey and a another girl 2 years younger than Solange.

Tina was devasted, Bey was devasted and Solange was devasted. Julez didn't quite understand it, they didn't explain him the whole thing and as Blue was too little she wasn't affected either, but Bey, I had never seen her so angry. She felt cheated by her father that claimed he was there for her, but was also for another daughter like her and she also shared her mother's pain of beeing cheated on.

A few years passed by, Matthew was living with his other family and Bey was pregnant with our second child. I wasn't allowed to speak his name or whatever that had anything to do with him. But when she was 6 months pregnant all emotional and he knocked on our door she couldn't resist but to forgive him. They made up and kept their relationship close as it was originally, but the fights didn't end, when Matt started to try to tell Bey what to do about her work, they had another fight. But they kept contact.

After a while, he had also made up with Tina, solange was the only one who was not completely convinced by his speech, but to keep the harmony of the family, she could only stand him and so did I. I never mentioned my feeling to Bey, not even after they fighted. And so it stayed just for me, that hatred I had for Matt.

'One day, after our son was born, your father came for dinner. I was only standing him as I said before. But then he started talking and it wasn't my best day, I hadn't slept, we had fighted before, I was pissed. I had no pacience for his little games that day.'

'What did you do?'

'After he said somethings, I punched him twice'

'Why would that kill him?'

'Because he was old, he had a heart attack after I punched him and didn't make it' Bey sat down on te bed when she heard that

'But... You didn't mean it'

'No, I didn't, I'm sorry Bey...'

'Why did I... I overreacted, didn't I?!'

'No, you.. You were right, I should have controled myself'

'Yeah, you should have, but... What did he say?'

'I was so full of hatred, that i don't actually remember Bey, he said something about you. He never thought I deserved you'

'I think you had no reason at all to punch him'

'Well... It doesn't change anything, but I did...'

'And what was that, the story that you just told me? My father and I always got along, no matter how much we fighted, that's why it didn't take long for me to forgive him! Can't you understand it?' Her voice started to get louder, I tried to calm her down, but she was crying and saying all those things, I just saw her getting away from me again. She just stoped talking when we heard a scream from Blue's room.

'NOOOOOO!' We ran to her room to see what had happened and she had her both hands on her ears and kept screaming not letting us get any closer 'I WANT GRANNY NOW! I WANT GRANNY!'

'Blue, calm down, calm down honey!' Bey tried to get close to her, but she wouldn't let, she was violent I had never seen her like that 'Ok, I'm gonna call granny, ok?'

Bey went off to call her mother, after a few minutes she came back and Blue had calmed down a little bit, but she was still nervous, Bey kept looking at me all confused.

After about half hour her mother rang the door bell. I was the one who answered, she didn't look at me as usually as she passed me to go to Blue's room

'What is going on Blue?' She asked

'Mommy and daddy, I can't stand it! I wanna go with you!'

'You wanna leave?' Bey asked almost crying, Blue wouldn't talk to her, she would only talk to her grandmother so Tina asked us to leave the room so she could talk to Blue and calm her down. 'Jay, I don't undersant'

'It's gonna be ok'

'She wants to leave me!' Matt had come out of his room to see what the noise was all about, but we told him to get back to his movie. After a few minutes, Tina came out of Blue's room, but she closed the door behind her.

'Honey...'

'NO, mom, you can't take her way from me!'

'I'm not taking her away Bey' Said Tina holding Bey 'She wants to be with me for a few weeks ok? She's confused and upset, it'll be good for her to stay with me ok?'

'But only for a while right?'

'Yeah, only for a while..' Bey nodded and she looked at me, what else could I do? If the girl didn't want to stay, we couldn't force her. 

Tina packed her bags and Blue left, without saying goodbye, without even looking at us. Bey watched her from the window until she was gone, and after she couldn't see her mother's car anymore she locked herself into our room also without saying a word.

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Ok guys, i'm sorry it took me so long to update! But here it's! The next chapter is gonna be the last!

I hope you liked it! Thanks for all the comments on the ohter chapters, it made me really happy :')

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