"Clary oh my god." Luke says and I cannot speak.
I can't.
"I needed to see you. I'm sorry if you don't want me here, but I need to talk to you." he says and I open my mouth to talk but he beats me to it.
"Clary, I'm so sorry. I should have told you before. Actually i shouldn't have even moved. I can't stand not being with you. I'm not happy at all. I miss you so much." Luke says quickly. I don't know what to say. What am I supposed to say?
"Luke I don't know what to say." I say and feel a drop of liquid fall into my foot. I quickly look down at it and see it's blood.
My wrist is still bleeding.
Shit.
"Why did blood just drip into your foot?" Luke asks and I shake my head.
"No reason um-" I try but Luke gently grabs my wrist and brings it up and looks at it. A look of worry spreads over his face and I feel the tears in my eyes.
"Clary baby..." Luke trails off and I full in sob. I let my head fall onto Luke's chest as I cry.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I didn't know what to do. I felt so empty. I'm so sorry. I just felt so horrible knowing I couldn't make you happy." I sob and Luke lifts my chin up as he hold my wrist like it's a piece of broken glass.
"Clary listen to me. You make me the most happy person on earth. I really moved because my mom wanted me too. I didn't say that because I didn't want my mom to seem like the bad guy. It's okay. Don't say your sorry. You can't be sorry for your feelings." Luke sad and walks inside and leads me into the bathroom, me still crying but now silently.
"I love you more than anything in the world Clary. Don't think anything different." Luke says and lifts me into the counter. He wets a wash cloth and stands between my legs. He hold up my wrist and lightly wipes the blood away.
"Tell me if I'm hurting you." Luke says and I decide to say it.
"Luke you are hurting me. You made me feel completely worthless, like I was nothing to you. I felt like I couldn't even make the boy I love happy. I felt like you didn't even genuinely care about me. You hurt me a lot. And now you think you can just come back to America after the worst 3 and a half weeks of my entire existence and make it all better by just cleaning some blood? It doesn't work that way anymore. You can't just say your sorry and we'll be all good. You can't fix this that easily Luke." I say and he looks up at me.
"I know. I want to make this better. I want you back in my life. I love you so much Clary and I miss you like crazy." Luke says and I shake my head.
"Do you really know that? Do you? You can't just make me fall to my knees again because you actually came back for me. It's gonna take a lot more than just a fucking trip to fix this." I say calmly, not madly, just calmly. I'm not in the mood to be in a fight where I have to actually talk.
"Clary, I know this isn't gonna be fixed easily. I want to make this better. I wanna be with you. I don't want to be away from you. I hate it so much. I just want to be able to tell you I love you, and have you say it back again." Luke says softly, making a year fall down my cheek, just from him. I'm still so weak.
"Luke I'm a mess. This is not gonna be easy whatsoever. I'm weak as hell and I don't know how you expect to fix this. All Ashton has been able to do is talk but his words go in one ear and out the other. I'm not even a hot mess. I'm just a complete mess." I says d he looks into my once bright green eyes, now almost a grey color from all the tears I've cried.
"Babe I am such a mess without you. I love you so much. I'm so sorry." Luke says and kisses my forehead.
"Yeah I get that. But I don't know if I'm gonna be okay Luke. I don't know what's gonna happen to me." I say.
"And I'm here to help you find out." Like says.
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Hello my pretties
God that sounds really freaking creepy.
But hey lovelies.
Hey thanks for 163 reads on Fame. If you don't read it then you should cause my friend says it's the best and she's in love with it and she has good taste in fanfiction so yeah.
What do you think is gonna happen? comment my precious
God I'm so creep right now..... I'll just go so bai
~Mads :3
