My Innocent Baby | 2jae

12. Lies

Jaebum's pov

I finally took my phone out of my pocket putting the pizza shop's digits in and calling to order. I chose 2 random pizzas and just ended the call since they told me it's gonna be there in 20 minutes.

What was I supposed to do now? Youngjae won't trust me anymore, he probably already hates me by now and I also hurted him, I'm never gonna be able to have him back.

This is when I felt that this boy was way much more for me than I expected. Seeing him sad was truly heartbreaking I missed his smile and the way he blushed at my nicknames, but here he was hugging Mark giving him the softness he gave me not long ago. I thought I owned him already but I was wrong, he surely prefer being with the perfect Mark Tuan than with the fuck boy Im Jaebum, what can I say about that? What my cousin told Youngjae was not 100% lies I had to admit I did had some girls home but that was some weeks ago... Why? I used to be a fuck boy that's as simple as that, I'm a man with needs and I need release so I found a way to free myself and being in a relationship being too much for me to handle I somehow ended up fucking around, and that's the reason I'm losing my sunshine now.

It's true that from the day I met him I stopped one night stands and even rejected some girls. I thought a lot about the cutie catching myself daydreaming about him in class or at random hours. And even when I felt needy I didn't wanted to rush it and only cared about his well being, the first kiss we shared was so simple yet so good, just lips touching, just him wanting to kiss me, I did teased him to go deeper in the kiss but he wasn't against it. After his released I could have asked for release too but even with my hard on the only thought in my head was to hug him, he obviously didn't look ready for anything to go further and I wanted to let him time even though I knew it went faster than any normal relationship, I don't want to hurt him, to ruin him and his purety. If what makes him happy is just to give me soft kisses on the lips I could do it for my whole life. But now everything was breaking into pieces, I was the one being the idiot, I was the fuck boy of course it's my fault how would someone like Youngjae ever do something wrong?

I let myself wander about Youngjae until I felt someone sit not that close to me on the sofa I turned my head to my right to see Mark turning on the TV not even giving me attention and on his right Youngjae sitting close to him, and away from me. I looked at him briefly and I knew he saw me staring but didn't want to look back at me. His expression was hurting me so bad, a little frown on his face his eyes red from the tears and puffy cheeks, he wasn't even watching the TV just looking away from me as much as possible. Mark then put his arm around his shoulders and brought him in his chest cuddling him and Youngjae closed his eyes. The view disgusted me and I felt my stomach hurts so bad I almost wanted to puke. I turned my gaze away and just decided to avoid them and go to the kitchen to get myself something to drink, the farthest from the two the better.

Youngjae 's pov

When I ran to the kitchen I couldn't help but to break in tears in Mister Tuan' s embrace. Knowing Jaebum did those things with multiple girls and maybe even boys before hurted me. I couldn't help but thinking he only wanted me to also do this kind of things I wasn't ready for. Our last time's actions replayed in my head and I felt disgusted in myself for letting him touch me like this, giving him my first kiss. I felt like I've been only used but I knew he didn't really do anything wrong to me and since I was okay with it I just felt bad about myself for letting go in front of him that day when he surely only thought of me like another... Fuck. My heart clenched and I cried harder taking Mark's shirt in my hands and hiding my face in his chest.

I felt like a kid who got rejected for the first time but it was something more than that, he used me. Shame was invading me while Mark was just hugging me back not caring about the tears I let on his shirt, he rubbed my back for me to regain my normal breathing and after some time I headed my head up to look at the man who looked at me softly when I realized it was still my teacher I pushed away and muttered a small 'sorry' he was obvious about why I did it and just patted my head before searching for something to drink for me.

-You know I may be your teacher but I'm only 24, don't worry much about that and just consider me as a friend when we're not at school. He poured down some apple juice in a glass for me. And also just call me Mark. He handed it to me which I gladly took in my hands and he put a hand on my back for us to make our way back to the sofa.

We walked closer to where Jaebum seated and I sat myself on Mark's right side away from Jaebum I only slightly glanced at him. He wasn't moving and only stood his elbows on his knees and hands wrapped together in front of his face. It hurted even more to see him like this, I didn't know what he was feeling but the expression on his face seemed like he was hurt, he told me that what Mark said were lies but are they really? Why would Mark even lie to me? I then quickly turned my gaze away feeling his heavy stare on me, the atmosphere was not confortable at all.

Mark then put his arm around me and I just closed my eyes trying to heal myself and just slipped into cuddling with him. I wanted to forget about meeting him, he is just a fuck boy and I should have been aware since the first day.

I felt a body stand up from the couch and footsteps leading away, I deduced it was Jaebum since Mark was still by my side and I just stayed there my stomach hurting from everything that happened.

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Drama~
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