From big to broken dreams.

My wedding day

-2 months later.....

I sat in front of my mirror staring at myself full of Jweleyr, make-up and anything a bride needs for a wedding. I had no emotions anymore I was not happy or sad and I was just hopeless and careless anyway this was a reality I had to get used to it. After a few minutes of staring at myself, some girls came to take me out where the guests were waiting for my arrival. They held me from the shoulders and guided me outside. When I entered the hall all eyes went on me but I didn't care. The girls guided me to a chair next Ayaan who was sat there smiling. I didn't even look at him and sat on the chair. I looked down at my hands and felt Ayann glance at me. 

I just stared at my hands knowing my life was just a waste, a dead end.  When I did look up there were thousands of people walking around some eating, some talking, some staring at me and Ayaan. The servants were rushing around giving everyone drinks. Everyone seemed happy except one person. Me, After 10 minutes I got up to wander around for a bit. As I went past there were kids running around, People giving food around, chatting and laughing. There were all enjoying themselves thinking that they were in a happy ceremony with a happy couple but no one probably thought what was actually inside my head and heart.

I crept outside to get some fresh air making sure Ami doesn't see me. I went into the corner where no one would see me. I stood there staring at the clouds as tears rolled down my eyes. I quickly wiped them away not wanting anyone to see me. I quickly rushed back to the hall and sat back down. Ayaan was staring at me with a questioning look. 

Ami, Abu and Ayaan's family came to the stage. They called a photographer who took photos of us as a 'happy family'. When it was time for us to eat I sat down next to Ayaan and stared at my food. I was justing playing with the food with my spoon when I saw Ayaan looking at me.

"Don't you wanna eat Mahnoor?" He asked. I carried on playing with my food and ignored him. 

He looked at me for a bit and then carried on eating. There was some Desi song in the background disturbing my thoughts. 

After we had eaten we went around talking to guests well only Ayaan did. I remained serious and lost in my thoughts not even realising where I was and with who.

When we sat back down in our chairs. Ayaan stared at me trying to figure out what was wrong with me.

"M-Mahnoor are you okay? Are you happy?" He asked.

"Does it look like I'm happy and will you stop the staring, please. I'll tell you to know I never wanted to marry you. Okay?" I said getting up to leave him to stare at me. I didn't see his face but I knew he was hurt.

I stood in the middle of the hall when Ami came to me. She held my shoulders and looked at me with her eyes close to tears.

"L-look at my Mahnoor, Just yesterday you were a little baby and now...your married. Mashallah, May Allah keep you away from Nasar. Come, don't be cross with me and give me a last hug, I've been dying for one." She said crying and holding her arms out to me. I threw my arms around her and cried. For everything. I didn't feel angry at her I just wanted love from my parents again.  I sobbed over her shoulders and she did the same. We hugged for a long time trying to make the most of it. 

"We don't wanna ruin your make up now. Do we? Have a good life dear." Ami said staring at my crying face. After a few minutes of talking Ami left to sort something out. I walked around for a bit not looking where I was. I bumped into Abu who was wearing all white with a black jacket with his strong attar. I looked up at him. I loved Abu. He meant a lot to me and for his sake, I could forgive him for ruining my life after all he was my father and didn't have an intention of all this. I was desperate for a hug from him, a true hug. Tears rolled down my eyes as I thought of all my good memories with my family which could never come back to me. I quickly wrapped around my arms around Abu who hugged me back with his strong comforting hands. I felt a tear on my head. Abu was crying. He never cried especially for me. I hugged him tighter. It was my first and last proper hug with Abu.

 After a few more seconds someone called Abu's name out and he gave me a smile and left . My life will always be like this now. No one will be there for me. I had to get used to it.

When the guest left, and it was getting late. Ami guided me to Ayaan room which was decorated with roses and candles. I sat on the bed and started crying. After a few minutes, I heard the door and wiped my tears quickly but I knew he still heard me. Ayaan went to the toilet with his sleeping clothes held in his hand. He came out after a bit and stood behind me.

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Thank you, everyone, for reading this chapter. I hope you liked it. I know I did the wedding so early but I wanted it to go on the wedding bit faster cause it was just gonna be boring then. Plz, vote and comment your views:-)