What Is Love?

11 | Heartbroken - 2nd Part

       [ J O N A T H A N's POV ]

The Bright coming in through the window was shining right into my eyes, they literally burned my eyes. I slowly rubbed them, before sitting up and when lowering my hands, I noticed that a chair was beside my Bed. I am in my Room.

Oh, I remember what happend.
Yesterday night, I believe, Damian told me he got a Girlfriend. Wow. I might have looked so stupid and pathetic, ohhh...I hope Damian forgets that ever happend.

I pulled my knees closer towards me, held them and buried my face inside this ball position I was making. But I was startled by the door suddenly opening, I looked towards it and opened my eyes wide when I saw Damian entering.

Me: Damian, why are you here?

He turned around, when meeting his eyes I couldn't believe what I saw. His eyes had black circles underneath them, he looked somehow tired but he still walked to the Bed and sat down at this chair.

Damian: How are you feeling?

Me: I...feel okay, better then yesterday. I guess...but what about you?

Damian: Mmm? Oh, I'm fine

Me: You...seem tired, you couldn't sleep?

Damian: I obviously couldn't sleep, because SOMEBODY! scared the living soul out of me! YOU THINK I AM ACTUALLY FINE!

He glared at me, obviously he is talking to me and I knew it, which is why I slowly lowered my gaze from his eyes towards my hands.
When I heard Damian sighing, I gulped.

Damian: At least you woke up, so what happend? Were you sick? Did something happen? Did anyone do something to you?

I didn't speak, only shook my head in response of 'no'.

Damian: Then how do you explain fainting in front of me and literally dying in front of me? If there is not explanation then, you might have gotten badly sick or something out of the ordinary

Me: Damian, may I ask you a question?

Damian: What is it, Jon?

I took a deep breath, before looking up and facing Damian.

Me: What am I to you?

Damian raised one eyebrow as he was confused as hell, he only blinked at me, not knowing how to answer this question.

Me: W-well l-like...am I just a Friend? Or a Best Friend? Or like-!

Damian: You are my Best Friend, what else could you be other then that?

Me: Hehe...I-i was wanted to confirm! Hehe! Great!

I fake smiled at Damian, who was still confused but sighed before getting up and checking something out in his bag. While he did that, I was staring at his bag while also thinking.

You are right Damian, I can't be more then a Friend to you. My...chance is over, I, no longer can be someone special to you. I now understand that I love you, and want to be more then Friends. However, you already have someone who is female.
I might have became different, but...I believe you would never be with someone like me. In your heart, there is no place for someone like me. I just wish, but wishing for the impossible makes it harder on your heart, because when you can't achive it....It will burn your heart, just like me.

Tears of sadness filled my eyes, I quickly wiped them with my fingers but they did not stop. Tears rolled down my cheeks, I tried to stay quiet but...couldn't help but make a noise by hiccuping, which I instantly regret.