The Sinful boy - Sequel to Fanboy // Seoksoo [completed]

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I was always the beatiful and perfect son for my family when I was young. I visited the church, help those in need of help, studied hard and was kind to everyone. I was loved by my parents because I was pure and always did well to please them.

I was the only child, their pride and joy, their precious baby.

Then I grew older and met Jeonghan, my best friend, in 4th grade. I just moved to the city and didn't really know anyone but Jeonghan seemed to knew everyone. He was popular and good looking, even when we wre kids. I have always been ok looking, even though some people compliment me a lot for my beatiful or handsome looks. Jeonghan said I looked like a cat.

We became quickly friends and soon best friends. My parents liked him a lot then. Jeonghan introduced me to his friends, and then I got more friends. Ome of them was Seokmin, the one with the most brightest smile and the most outgoing guy I've ever met. He was funny and sang really well even in a young age, he looked good and made me drool when he wasn't looking. I still didn't talk to him, being scared he didn't like me at all. I was paranoid without me even noticing.

Since I was young, I haven't thought that liking a boy is a thing. I have always heard my parents talk about dad and mom, kings and queens, a woman and a man, not never the same-sex relationship, so I was confused with my feelings. I liked Seokmin. He was bright like a star and whenever I was in the same room as him, I always had that comfortable feeling inside.

It got me stressed. Over months I was thinking my thoughts and searching information without asking my parents. I was afraid to tell not knowing what they wanted me to do.

Such a undirty child I was, always thinking what my parents thought and live like they wanted. I was called the Holy Jisoo in my friend group. I wish I would have stayed that way.

One time in fifth grade I was crying in the bathroom alone. I forget my food at home and my parents couldn't bring me cause they had work. I was too scared to ask Jeonghan to give me some, I didn't want my best friend to think I'm annoying. So while the others ate I went to bathroom, ending up to cry.

Someone coughed at the door and made me look up to the cougher. Seokmin.

He looked worried and it made me feel guilty. I quickly wipep my tears and gulped. "Oh, Se-seokmin.. Sorry, do you want me to move somewhere else or-"

"No, stay here", he sayd and came closer placing his backpack down, looking at my face pouting. "Why are you crying, Jisoo? Did someone mean bully you?" he asked and wiped my tears with his thumb.

I felt my heartbeat get faster.

"N-no, it's a stupid reason.. I left my food home and got sad..", he listened my explanation. I didn't dare to look at his face, but when he was silent I glanced up to see his eyes. He smiled and turned around to get his foodbox. He offered it to me. "Here. I can share these with you. You are so kind to everyone, so I want you to feel what everyone else feels around you", he sayed and showed a different smile from what I've seen. That was a kind and warmhearted smile that made my heart flutter.

That was our first time to talk together like just the two of us.

After that I got the courage to say hi to him everytime I saw him. He made me smile even then when he was just walking and doing nothing. My crush grew stronger and I got to know more about sexality as I grew older.

I was in middle scool when I first got bullied. There was this boygroup always calling me with names like the church boy or the pretty boy, once in a while oushing me around. Jeonghan was still always there to support me and stand for me, firing back to the bullies.

But Seokmin was in a different middle school than I. I didn't see him like I used to see and I missed him everyday. I needed him.

One day this boygroup followed me after school. They took my backpack and threw my books around, messing with my things and pushing me away. "Please let me go!" I cried when one of them held my wrist harshly as he hit me with my book. "Not until you see how pathethic you are, you're always crying! You remind a girl!"

I shook my head in fear. I was so scared back then and still the inly thing I thought was Seokmin. The one that made me feel safe.

"Hey! Let go of him!"  a voice said and suddenly the bullies let me go. It was Seokmin, here to save me. I smiled as he came closer looking all badass, a knight with a shining armor. My eyes didn't leave from him. "Who are you? His boyfriend?"

My soldier.

Seokmin didn't answer and punched the guy to the face, making them retreat and go away. Seokmin rushed to me making sure I was alright asking if I was okay all over again. Then I just hugged him sliding my skinny arms around his torso, feeling his warmth around me hugging back. "It's okay, baby"

The word came so naturally from him and the nickname got me weak. I never told him that I liked him, still in that moment it felt like he was mine.

How unholy from me. I am so selfish.