The Sinful boy - Sequel to Fanboy // Seoksoo [completed]

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A week I was safe. No one was brave enough to do anything, since Seokmin was with me all the time, keeping me company and making me smile like I haven't in a long time then. He was so nice to me.

I could still feel ugly stares to me, but Seokmin got me forget those. I was happy to be alive.

Unlike the following day. Seokmin had to stay after school to do something and I had to walk home alone. I thought I would be okay.

Wrong.

The big bullies came. "How's the bitch of Seokmin doing? You've been such a coward hiding behind Seokmin"

"Fucking faggot, you like Seokmin don't you?"

"What a loser".

"Hey watch your words, he is the God's slut", they all laughed at me. It felt bad again. Everything that went fine went back down like a rollercoaster. My head got lower and the following actions still makes me sick in the stomich. They beat me up again. It was like hell and it felt like eternity. Like last time they left me to bleed on the quiet street. This time I didn't cry. I had no tears.

But it felt even worse inside. It was like darkness that rose inside. I didn't feel anything.

My mom shouted me again when I got home; I was a bad child for giving up. She said that God didn't like me, when he let these things happen to me. I was dirty child.

They moved me to a different school, Christian school. It was more expensive but mom said it would heal me.

It didn't. The rest of the high school felt lonely. I was alone and didn't make there any friends. I missed Jeonghan and Seokmin. I talked to them in my phone and saw them after school sometimes but it still was lonely. I sometimes just sat in my room corner hugging my legs and stared to the wall, listening the silence. That was when most of my thoughts got up, making me feel even more bad. It was like someone was there whispering bad things to my ear.

"Seokmin.. I need you.."

It was the last year of high school when Seokmin came to my house to meet me. My parents let him to my room and I was so happy to see him. We hugged, keeping each other close. I felt like he knew how I felt. How broken and lonely I was. "Jisoo.. I miss you. I want to have you. I want to be your man, to protect you and to tell you how lovely you are. I want to love you, baby", his words are always like from a dream. I cried once again.

I didn't knew he felt the same way. "I love you Seokmin. I have since the fourth grade. I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I'm sorry. I'm so-"

That was our first kiss. He kissed me and the feeling was so pure that it didn't feel like a bad thing. It wasn't evil, it was like something that I've missed has came back to me. Seokmin backed but connected again. I was so happy, feeling nice all over my body. His hands fell on my waist making my spine shiver. His touch made me forget what was right and what wrong.

He smiled after the sweet kiss. I smiled back. That day was like a dream. I told him about myself and how I have been feeling inside and he just listened and hold me.

I didn't tell my parents that we were together and that I loved a man. It was secret between me and Seokmin, and our friends. It was going well. We got off from high school and Seokmin got his own apartment where I visited a lot. We did sinful things there, but every minute, every second was worth of my happiness. He told me that he loves me and complimented me whenever he could. I couldn't be more happier.

Jeonghan was doing good too. I talked with him a lot and he always mentioned that S.coups rapper. He was in love with him. I saw it. Whenever he watched him performing or talked how perfect the rapper was made me happy too. I still wished Jeonghan could find someone who could love him back.

But everything went down again when my parents got to know about me and Seokmin. One day my boyfriend was walking me to my home, hand in hand and I saw that my parents cars are away. I thought they weren't home. So we went inside with Seokmin. I lead him to my room. "Jisoo?" "Hm?" "You know how much I love you right?"

I turned to see him little confused. He smiled and attacked to kiss my lips. "I love you", he kissed again. "I love you", again. "I. Love. You", he gave kisses to my whole face as I giggled in his arms. I looked to his eyes.

"I love you too, Minnie", I kissed his lips. "I love you", he pushed me against the wall and we started to kiss more tasting each other lips. I didn't even hear my mother in my room door.

Seokmin was pulled away with power and soon I saw my mom looking terrified. "Ylu ugly boy! Stay away from my son you dirty creature!" she shouted to Seokmin. It felt so bad. Seokmin panted and looked at me. I shook my head tears filling my eyes.

I didn't want him to get hurt. My sins brought trouble to my soldier.

"Get out! Don't ever touch my son again!" she shouted loudly. I got myself together, I wanted to be brave for Seokmin. I wanted at least once to be the one who stood up for someone.

I stepped in front of my mother. "Don't talk to him like that! Mom, I love him! I love him more than anything, I don't understand why loving is a bad thing!!" my mom looked pissed off. She was angry to me. She slapped my cheek. "Joshua, if you ever talk to your mother like that again I will make sure that you never leave the house! And loving someone who is the same sex as you? Are you insane? How dirty my own son is!"

I started crying as my mom dragged Seokmin out of the house. Seokmin struggled to get away from her, failing. I cried loudly, when the front door closed and fell on the ground.

I cried so much. It felt painful. I'm so sinful. I hate myself more than anything in this world.

I want to die.