The Bad Boy - Jelena Fanfic

Chapter 29

Chapter 29
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I sat there in the chair, crying my eyes out. The lady at the front desk had helped me up and helped me over to a chair, cause I couldn't do it by myself. I was too heart broken to do anything at the moment.
I didn't know a person could cry this much, until now. I literally felt as if my heart had shattered into a billion pieces when the lady had told me that Justin's heart had stopped.
He was my whole world. And now my whole world was gone. How am I supposed to live without? He was everything to me. I thought him and I actually had a future together. I thought we would someday get married and have a kid, or kids. But I guess there won't be a future for us now. Not now, or ever.
The lady handed me a tissue as she a hand on my shoulder.
"T-thanks." I say as I wipe my eyes with the tissue.
"It's going to be okay." she says softly.
I shake my head. "No, no it won't. He was my everything! He meant everything to me! And now h-he's gone." I cried, not meaning to shout at her, but I was too upset to even care.
"I understand. I'm sorry for your lost." the lady said before she got up and went back to the front desk, realizing that she should leave me alone.
I can't believe I lost Justin. It was like I just watched him slip out of my life right in front of me. And I didn't even do anything to help him.
I wanted to cry harder, but I don't think I could. I didn't have the energy; the strength. I almost felt like screaming, but I didn't need people staring at me.
School wasn't going to be the same now, not seeing Justin there. My life wasn't going to be the same ever again.
I'm probably never going to be with anyone else cause I thought Justin was the one. I lost the one person who I thought was my soul mate. I lost the one person that I loved more than life itself. How could I just move on?
I put my face into the palms of my hands as I let the tears fall and fall. I wanted this all to be just a dream. But I knew it wasn't.
This was real life. And it's hell.
"Selena?" I looked up and saw Demi.
I immediately get up and run into her arms, hugging her tightly.
"Oh my gosh, what happened? What's wrong?" she asks frantically.
I didn't say anything. I just cried into her shoulder.
"Is it Justin?" she asked.
I pulled away and looked her in the eyes. "H-he's gone D-Demi." I sobbed out through my tears.
Demi's face softened. "Oh my. Selena, I'm so sorry." she said and brought me in for another hug.
I honestly felt like killing myself. I was in so much pain right now. My heart hurt. It's been shattered and stepped on a thousand times; it just hurts. It hurts to think about living my life without Justin. He was supposed to be apart of it.
I'm going to have no memories of him. Except for the memories that we made together. That's all I have to remember him. That's it.
Demi and I sat down in the chairs, her putting a hand in my shoulder. You could see the tears in her eyes. She knew I loved him. But she didn't know how much I loved him. Words couldn't even describe how much I love him.
From his hazel eyes that always had a sparkle in them, to his smile that always lightened up my day, to the way he would call me his "baby" or "babe", to the day I gave him my virginity, and to the days I spent with him. The little amount of time I was with him, I was going to cherish it forever.
"Are you okay?" Demi asked me, even though she knew I wasn't.
It was written all over my face that I was broken; shattered. Nothing could ever fix the way I was feeling, or anybody.
"N-no." I reply as I sniffle.
"I'm so, so, so sorry Selena. I really am." she says.
"It's okay, Demi." I say.
"It's my fault. If I would have just let you two be together, Justin wouldn't have gone to the club. The club wouldn't have burned down and Justin wouldn't have gotten into the condition he was in. And he would still be here, making you smile. But no. This is all because of me. I'm so sorry Selena. I can't tell you how sorry I am." Demi cried, tears now streaming down her face.
"Demi, no." I said shaking my head.
There was no way this was her fault. It was mine. She doesn't need to blame herself.
"It's not your fault. Don't blame yourself. If anything, it's my fault." I say.
"It's not, Selena. You know it's mine, just admit it." she says. "I'm so sorry."
I shake my head again and then hug her. I didn't say anything. I didn't want to argue or make myself feel like shit even more.
I hate when Demi blames herself for this. It was my fault. I could have easily chose Justin, but I didn't. Therefore, it's my fault. And I'm never going to forgive myself for this.
"Um, did you bring the medicine?" I say, changing the subject.
We both sniffled as Demi nodded her head.
"Yeah. It's right here." she said and patted the brown bag she had in her hand.
"Can you give me it? I'm going to go take it in the bathroom." I say standing up.
"I think I should go with you." Demi says.
I nod my head and we walked into the bathroom. Demi sat her purse down on the bathroom counter and the bag that had the medicine inside. She pulled out the medicine bottle and handed it to me. She also had brought a water bottle so I could take the medicine.
Demi really is a great friend to have. I don't know what I would do without her.
I took some of the medicine and then handed it back to Demi. I was hoping this little cold that I had was going to go away in the next twenty-four hours.
"Thanks, Demi." I say.
She nods her head. "But, I think you need to take something else." Demi says.
I raised an eyebrow. "I think I'm good." I say.
"No, not medicine." she says as she gets back into the brown bag. "This."
Demi pulled out a box, making me widen my eyes.
"I think you might be." she says.
I gulped.

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