twitter | calum hood

fifty

nd december 2017

it's been awhile since i last spoken to calum. we ended up in bad terms, but i accepted his apology. him and halsey.. are divorced. they have a child, aged 1. after the divorce, halsey left the child to calum. what suprised me is the name calum named her; amanda. reagan amanda.

that afternoon, calum left reagan with me, luke and crissy to buy some food. yes, we all still live together. including michael and ashton.

"amanda! turn on the news." ashton exclaimed which i obeyed immediately.

ashton has gotten a call from a friend who works at a nearby market, calling there has been a big accident.

"news report! 23 year old boy named calum hood has been hit and run at the 5th street, yok mark—." this can't be. it must be a prank! i run quickly as i could out of the house, leaving all the others still shocked. i ran and ran, too late for getting in the car and also since it was near.

i finally reached yok market, seeing a car wrecked badly. this is calum's car.

i crossed the yellow caution tape, the police stopping me while i swatted their hands away. as soon as i reached at calum's area, i saw his nose bleeding and his temples were bleeding.

"mandy," he coughed, trying to smile at me, "thank you for everything and i'm sorry for everything wrong i've done. i did that because halsey's dad asked me to be with halsey because h-halsey—" he coughed, "has breast cancer. i did it for her sake. i still love you, remember that. i'm giving you reagan to take care of, it's probably the only remembrance you have of me. remember, i'll love you 'till the death of me." and he coughed one last time.

"no calum!" i cried, "don't leave me! don't let me go! not yet calum, not yet." i cried, not letting of his hands. "please, wake up! i love you!" they pushed me away, taking calum out of the car carefully.

we reached the emergency room, the others in the waiting area while i'm hugging my knees. the doctor went out and before he could ask, "what happened?" i asked, my voice barely audible from screaming.

"i'm sorry," he looked at me, "but he's dead on arrival." my eyes started to get blurry. not like this. i don't want to lose him like this!

"no! please tell me you're joking! this can't be real!" i begged but the doctor only said i'm sorry and left us. i cried, the guys tried to stop me but i can't.

i woke up in a hospital bed, seeing the guys asleep on the couch. "what happened?" all their eyes shot open, creepy. "you were in coma for 2 days." crissy explained, hugging me.

it must be from the shock of calum.. dying. "the funeral is tomorrow, at the resort." it's all happening too quickly.

it was today. i was discharged from the hospital not too long ago. i wore a black dress that calum gave me for our semi-date in the resort. i placed my speech in my purse, not even sure if using it.

flashback

it's our first date and i'm excited. i just finished applying my make-up and i'm gonna be honest, i look nice. i wore my shoes and exactly that, a knock was heard from my room door.

"come in!" i tied the sandals and stood up, finished. he smiled at me while i did the same as he lead the way to a restaurant in the resort.

the restaurant was empty, because the whole resort was rented for us. we ate as the food came out and started talking.

"are you enjoying?" i looked up, nodding and smiling. "fatty." he snorted while i faked gasp.

"delete it, fatty." i said as he took a picture of me, fake gasping. he's really capturing the moments.

"hey, have you seen the trending on twitter since ashton posted the picture?" he asked while i shook my head. he got his phone out quickly and showed me the trending. it says, #hoodles and #calda.

"those are weird ship names." i laughed and so did he. we continued the night talking and eating.

end

we arrived and we saw all the relatives of calum, close friends, everyone close and that knows him.

"now, for the girlfriend of calum to speak," halsey got up, "amanda wales." her expression slowly faded and was replaced with anger, i ignored her, walking up on the mic.

"hello, everyone. i'm not exactly calum's g-girlfriend. but that doesn't matter," i paused, looking at the people, "calum was kind of an asshole, but is a very sweet, amazing guy. he's the best boyfriend— well, ex-boyfriend you could ever ask for. he'd always be there for you when you're at your worst. but the negative thing about him is that he falls in love too easily; like me. he has a daughter named reagan amanda, who looks just like him. his hair, eyes and lips. he gave reagan to me to be taken care of and sometimes, i just couldn't bear looking at the little girl. she reminds me so much of calum, the way she laughs and smiles. calum once told me, that sometimes you have to let go of something or someone important to make things better. he's my other half, not only that, but he completes the missing puzzle in me." i sniffed, wiping my tears on my cheeks, "he was always so secretive and mysterious, but once you get to know him, he's a crazy peach. he loves to joke and hates when people mess his hair. i haven't known him for the longest time, but that's some things i knew about him on it's period of time. i'm not exactly glad that i wasn't given the chance to tell him i love him. but now i can; i love you calum, 'till the death of me." i weakly smiled and went down, joy, calum's mother, hugging me as i cried.

and that i knew, regrets are felt when it's just too late.

2nd december 2019

present

i sat infront of his grave, just staring at it blankly.

"hey asshat. it's your 2nd year anniversary and i've been doing badly," i faked laugh, "reagan has been asking about you. she's 4 years old and is a very bright girl. halsey wanted full custody of reagan when we visited her in the hospital, but we wouldn't let her as she's dying and it would be bad for reagan." i weakly smiled, "everyone misses you. reagan calls me her mom now, ya know? the guys' still tells me how i'd be a perfect mother for reagan, i adopted her. her last name is now wales, cal." i didn't know i was crying until a tear dropped on my hands, "i'm sorry i wasn't there to save you. i'm sorry i let you go that easily. i made a bad mistake then." i paused, "i don't know how to tell you this.. but i'm in a relationship with ashton. he confessed his feelings for me and for once, i wanted to try being in love again. i wanted to try to love him." i cried, wiping my eyes, "i love you, calum. and i'll love you 'till the death of me."

the.. END.