After All This Time

• Nine •

My window has lit up a bit since we entered but not by much, it's probably like two or three I'd guess, I can't really see what's happening but my god can I feel it.. The sheer warmth I can feel whenever he pulls his head back up, the cool air hitting the spit remaining on my shaft sends a small shock down my spine, it feels amazing. There's a hot feeling building in my stomach, I usually don't feel it this early on, there must be something about him that makes me like this, so easily satisfied. A choking noise comes from below me, I sit up, my shaky arms holding me up.
"You alright?" I can hear my own breath shaking, I don't know why I asked if he's ok, obviously he just choked, that's just what happens with a dick in your throat.
"Yea.." he chuckles lightly, I expected him to stop but he went right back to it, the unexpected pressure on my cock caught me off guard and I gave a small gasp. I could feel Craig smile to himself about that. The warm pressure in my lower stomach felt like it had squeezed itself as small as it could to fit inside a tiny box.
"Craig..?" He hums in response, it sends vibrations through me, it feels weird but also kinda good. "I won't last much longer." I give a breathy chuckle. Craig squeezes a little tighter and occasionally lightly drags his teeth on my tip. I give out without warning, I don't know how he learned that bit, but that sent me overboard. An uncomfortable sounding swallow and a little bit of cleaning up courtesy of Craig's tongue, he flops into his back next to me.
"I get a five minute warning but not an immediate warning?" He asks sarcastically, he's clearly not upset over it.
"Sorry, that teeth thing you did.. Was new to me."
"Yeah? I know Tweek liked it, you blondes are rowdy." Craig actually laughs to himself. "You've never had that technique used on you?"
"No, I'm kind of upset about it now, damn."
"You know.." Craig paused. "I thought you'd have more.." He pauses again as if he's afraid of saying something
"Stamina?" I complete what he was obviously trying to say, he nods. "I usually do but I guess..." I trail off, I knew why, I just don't think it was quite the ideal time to tell him. 'So, you just finished blowing me and all, but hey man, I kinda love you.'
"You guess what?" Craig asks, I can see the small amount of light from my window bouncing off his glittery eyes.
"I guess just not today.." I laugh. "It's been a while." I say, referring to the last time I actually had any form of sex, I'd say it was a few months ago.
"Dude?"
"Nah, girl." I laugh in embarrassment as it probably isn't the smartest thing to say, now he's gonna ask for a name and I can't even remember who.
"Who might that be?"
"I actually don't remember.." I trail off trying to think, I now sort of wish I hadn't thought any deeper about it. "Oh wait.. Yea I do.. You've met her, I'd say you have a rather.. Close relationship with her.. One might call you family." Craig stares at me, that last sentence I now realize could imply something entirely wrong. "Your cousin, Red." I decided clarifying was much better than implying that I'm preying on his sister, who is currently twelve..
"You could've just said that, I'm not gonna murder you for it, I don't like any of my cousins."
"Good, then I've also got with your other cousin-" Craig looks at me.
"Do you have a fetish for my family members or something?"
"That one was a joke, I swear." A long but comfortable silence washes over, I honestly don't like silence, it forces me to think, sometimes about things I don't want to remember. The several times I've been shot, stabbed, hit by cars, I hate when they come back to me, it reminds me that my friends have seen me die a thousand times and don't remember it at all. Also it just genuinely hurts, kinda traumatic honestly. Craig lets out a deep breath that broke my train of thought, poor conductor, his train went and broke. Craig repositions himself, he flips onto his side and nuzzles his face into my neck, he rests his hand on my chest. "Thanks" I breath out as my eyes shut. I guess it's a little weird to thank him for that kind of thing? That's usually a relationship custom but, he still didn't have to so...
"How chivalrous of you." Craig mutters, half asleep. All I can do as I lay here is think to myself, was it a mistake to not stop him? Should I have? Will he leave me in the morning? Will this or whatever follows ever actually mean anything? Should I tell him while he's still awake? There's too many questions, I'm gonna go insane over this, why can't brains just have a dimmer switch that's based on how much you actually want to think about, it'd be a lot easier to sleep at night. Craig chuckles to himself.
"What?" I ask.
"I was just thinking.. We've got a weird relationship now, we're buddies but like.." He pauses, I wonder if he's ashamed of himself.. He can't even say it, maybe he's embarrassed, or just awkward. I don't even know right now, he's trying to have a serious conversation with me. "So what would you classify this as now?" He laughs. I hate this. I know what I want to tell him, I know how to answer this question but I feel like I'll just ruin everything.
"I don't honestly know dude." I force out a laugh.