Oof....what the heck just happened right now? Why can't I seriously like remember crap? It's currently 2:45 am. I'm suppose to wake up in a few hours and I'm just so fucking awake right now obviously. Maybe smoking a whole pack of cigarettes wasn't really the most clever thing ever. I got up and went to the kitchen. I found some sleeping pills. I took like three just 'cause I just really wanna knock the fuck out so I can wake up for school. "Hopefully this works." I said walking back to my room.
~6:00 am~
I heard the god awful alarm and I got up. I'm still so freaking tired from those pills I took earlier. Before school I wanted to grab a coffee...with my moms credit card. I sneaked into her room and I tried my best to keep quiet. I got her purse and lucky for me, the wallet was on top. I got her credit card and dashed out of the house. I bought my coffee and since school started at 7:50 I stayed at the coffee shop for a little bit. While drinking my coffee i don't make eye contact with anyone. I look down at the table without looking away for a second. I heard footsteps coming toward me. "well shit,"I thought to myself. I still don't look up. "May I join you Ray?" A girl voice told me. Still, without looking up i say, "Who are you? And how do you know my name?" I was annoyed. "My name is Melanie. I'm a cheerleader at Valleydae. I've heard a lot about you. And I see you all the time walking in the halls." I don't why in God's name would a girl ever want to hang with me but I look up and I see Melanie. I have to say...she has the fucking looks. "Fine, sit." I said sipping my coffee. She smiles and sits down across from me. "So why would you, a popular, outgoing, and most importantly a cheerleader would want to hang out with me?" I tell her with hella confusion. "Well I don't really consider myself one of those kinds of girls, that you know...avoid nerds..I mean not that I'm calling you one but...I like being friends with everybody. Not just popular kids." I look at her with a blank expression. She makes me nervous just by looking at her. "Er...well...I usually keep to myself and, I was never really friends with any popular kids." I told her hoping she would understand. "I don't mind being your friend Ray, i like your style, and personality. I'm all about that." She said back to me. I look at my phone and it's 7:38. "Oh fuck, i think we should get to school Melanie" I said.
Melanie and I hung out most of the day. We got closer by the minute but I was gonna keep my distance from her.
~A few days later at school~
Melanie called me today saying that she wasn't going to school because of a pep rally she was going to at another school. I kinda needed the isolation. I feel terrible cause i haven't told her about my addiction yet. Ugh...she's gonna be hella pissed by the time I tell her the truth. Maybe I should tell her before someone else finds out about it and tell her themselves....*sigh...this is my life. When I got home I wanted to keep working on my art. I had a great idea in mind. I wanted to try to draw a fantasy. Maybe I'll give my art to Melanie. Not to mention...I started gaining HELLA feelings for melanie. I mean yeah, I'll definitely understand if she doesn't feel the same way but...part of me is hoping that she does. And I doubt it very much. Tomorrow is Saturday, so I'm so freaking happy about that. Mom isn't home yet for some reason. "Maybe I should call her." And I did. I called mom and it took awhile for her to answer the phone. Turns out she went out of state to visit dad in jail. I realized I still had my moms credit card. "UGH! fucked this shit up again!! Damn it!" I got angry. My poor mom probably doesn't have money for gas. Ugh mom Im sorry for the life i chose...
End of chapter, hope u enjoyed if not then whatever😒Lmaoo jk
