𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐇𝐈𝐃𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐏𝐒𝐘𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐇 ━━ 𝐉𝐀𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐘

thirteen

j a c k

☁︎

my eyes flutter open. darkness consumes the room that i'm in. i sit up in what seems like a really soft bed. my head aches in pain as i sit up.

the memories of what happened come back. tears form in my eyes. a steam of water runs down my left cheek. i just let it be and have it travel down my face.

more come out of my eyes, i slowly break down crying. i should have listened to my mother. if i never have snuck out to eben's party, this would never have happened. the pain and suffering could have been spared if it wasn't for my actions.

if i would have cut deeper i wouldn't have had to go through that unspeakable event. i just want to die. why did god have to do this to me, corbyn, and zach? they have families that are very worried and heartbroken that their children are gone.

maya's family probably still think she will come home one day, but she never will. i want my family back. to kiss isla's rosy cheeks again, hug ava again, play the guitar and sing with sydnie again, and tell my mother that i love her one last time.

i didn't listen to her, and that landed me here. i feel so guilty. now i'm in a secret cellar, trapped with a psychopathic killer/rapist. i might never see the light of day again.

this is all jonah's fault. i want him to suffer the pain that i had to go through. he needs to pay for what he's done to all of us. my mood goes from sad to angry to furious.

i get up and pace the room, running my hands through my curly hair, tugging it a few times. after pacing around for a few minutes i find myself at the wall of the room.

the dark blue walls look black in the lighting. i pull my right fist back and strike the wall with all my might. it makes a loud noise and a crack.

i do it again but his time my fist goes straight through the wall, making a large hole. blood trickles down my hand, some got on the wall too.

moments later both of my fists are punching the wall. the anger is building up inside me. i hear the door open. i've punched the wall so many times that my hands are numb. blood everywhere.

i collapse to the ground, but before i hit it somebody catches me. they gently set me down on the carpet that covers the wooden floor. i just lay in their arms crying and shaking.

they rock me back and forth, playing with my hair which calms me down but not all the way.

"it's okay, you're going to be okay" the voice whispers in my ear. i know that voice, and i know exactly who it is.

zach.

i cry into his chest, not caring about anything else than letting my sadness out. i start to shake violently, tears storm down my face more than ever, very fast. my breath quickens, making it very hard to breathe.

zach hesitates for a second then grabs my face. our lips connect, i stop shaking and my breathe slows. i forget about everything, just focused on the kiss.

a tingly feeling rises in my stomach every second our lips are in contact. he pulls away quickly which makes me frown.

"what was that for?" i ask blushing violently. "i've learned that kissing helps stop a panic attack and i guess i just panicked. i'm really sorry, jack" zach says scratching the back of his neck, staring at the ground below him.

i lift his head with my middle and pointer finger. his head lifts up and i immediately smash my lips onto his. the same passion is there like the last time.

i think i'm in love with zach. no, i can't be. i'm in love with daniel. he's my boyfriend and i'm his. i couldn't like another guy. can i?

the kiss turns into a make out. after about a minute we both pull away. i stare into his eyes just like the first day i was here. i've fallen more in love with his chocolate brown eyes. what's not to love about him? he's perfect.

"let's get you cleaned up" zach says standing up. i get up and follow him to my bathroom. the blood stains and water is all gone. they must have clean it up already.

zach opens the cabinet and grabs the first aid kit. he opens it and i see that the scissors are gone. memories of what happened flood back into my mind. i look at the bathtub and remember every moment. just thinking about it makes me terrified.

zach cleans the blood then wraps my hands in bandages. my face is still messed up but it will heal. "let's go out, we want you to meet someone" zach holds out his hand.

i take it and zach drags me out of the room to the living room. a girl about 18 with straight black hair and pale skin is sitting on the couch next to corbyn.

zach let's go of my hand once they look up. the girl looks scared. "jack! you're okay!" corbyn gets up and hugs me. i hug back. "who is that?" i point at the black haired girl.

"that's christina, she will be living here with us now" corbyn says. she gets up and hugs me. i hug back because i really need one right now.

i look over at corbyn and he's giving us a weird look, like he's jealous. we pull apart and i hold my hand out. "i'm jack but ruby in front of jonah " i introduce my self.

"christina or umm sapphire" she responds, taking my hand and sharing it. once we stop talking to each other corbyn relaxes. i wonder what that was about.

"jack can i talk to you privately please?" corbyn asks me. "uhh yeah sure" i speak out, following corbyn to his room. he closes the door after me.

i look at him, he has a sympathetic look on his face. "what happened in there, jack?" corbyn asks with a sigh. tears start to form in my eyes. i shake my head.

"bad things" i respond back, trying to keep the tears in. "how bad?" corbyn asks with a tear rolling down his cheek. i break down crying. corbyn rushes over and comforts me. he knows exactly what happened.

"it's okay jack, i know what your going through" corbyn says right above a whisper. "he did it to you too?" i ask wiping my nose and eyes.

corbyn just nods his head with tears storming down his face. i hug him for a long time.

"can i tell you something?" i ask still hugging him. "yeah" he says in a shaky voice. "i'm gay" i say not confidently. "i know you are" he laughs.

"what? how?" i smile,
knowing he's okay with it. "daniel told me that he had a crush on a guy named jack but i never knew what happened because i was kidnapped before i could see if you actually became a couple" corbyn says, his voice a little less shaky.

"but jonah took it all away from me" i say crying into his shoulder. "he took everything corbyn,

he will pay"

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-alayna ✰