Tattoo Namkook

Chapter 8

"I need to die!" I lifted the knife up to stab myself. Before I could stab myself a firm grip was placed on the knife. "Stop." I looked up with tears in my eyes. Namjoon stood there with tears starting to form in his eyes. "Please stop." I let go of the knife. "N-Namjoon I-I.." He Put the knife down. "No..I don't wanna hear it..." a tear streamed down his face. "Why don't you stop?"

I looked down. "Because I want to die.." he rapped his arms around my neck hugging me. "Why? Your loved by others and your smart and handsome." I shook my head. "I'm none of those..I'm ugly and stupid...I'm a disgrace-" he cut me off. "No! If I love you than how the hell are you like that?!" My eyes widened. "Y-you l-love m-me??" I questioned. "Yes I do! I don't care if you don't love me back!" "You don't even know me!" "Yes I do! I know you more than anyone else!"

He lightly grabbed my jaw and tilted it to face him. "Namjoon I-" he kissed me making me immediately shut up. I closed my eyes so it wouldn't be so awkward. I melted into the kiss and kissed back. He pulled away. "I-I'm sorry..." I shook my head. "It's fine." "I'll just go get the bandages." I nodded. He turned around with pink cheeks and left to go get some bandages.

I touched my lips. "What if he leaves me? Because I'm not good enough for him?" I looked down. "Sorry what?" I looked up and behind my shoulder to see Namjoon walking towards me with his bandages and cleaning stuff. "N-nothing.." he walked infront of me and kneeled down. He pulled out a cloth and wiped the blood. "Ow! That hurts!" "Sorry!" I bit my lip so I wouldn't complain again.

After Namjoon bandaged me up He Put me in bed and cuddled me till I fell asleep.

•namjoons pov•

I waited until Jungkook fell asleep and got up. I walked out of the room and went straight to the kitchen. I grabbed the home phone and dialled yoongi's number.

Phone call
"What do you want it's 3 in the goddam morning."
"I need help with Jungkook.."
"What kind of help?"
"Jungkook tried to kill himself..I don't know what to do."
"Hide all of the sharp objects in the house and check on him a few times a day."
"Okay thanks."
"Good night."

I put the phone back in it's phone holder and started hiding any sharp objects in the house. I was up till 5 in the morning hiding sharp things and making sure nothing sharp was left behind. I sighed when I was done and got back into bed to sleep.

I woke up and didn't see Jungkook in bed. "That's odd...he usually sleeps longer than me." I looked at the alarm clock and immediately jumped out of bed. "Holy crap it's 1 in the afternoon!" I ran out of the room to look for Jungkook. I sighed when I saw him with Yoongi and Mia. Jungkook looked at me and smiled. "Good morning Namjoon!" I smiled back. "Good morning jungkook." I walked over to the couch to sit down. "I was teaching Yoongi some sign language." I smiled again. "Can we go shopping for art stuff? I wanna do some art." Yoongi answered for me. "I'll take you shopping." Jungkook smiled. "Thank you."

•yoongi's pov•

I agreed to take Jungkook to the store that way Namjoon can have some time on his own. We arrived at the store and Mia immediately ran after the toys. I chased after her. "Mia! Come back!" I remembered she couldn't hear and mentally face palmed. She grabbed a toy and turned around. She gave it to me and I nodded. I signed to her. "That's all for now." She smiled and nodded. I turned around to see Jungkook in the art isle. I grabbed Mia's hand and walked over to Jungkook.

"Did you find anything?" He nodded. He showed me sharpened pencils and a sketchbook along with a sharpener. "Why do you need a sharpener? The pencils are already sharpened." I questioned. "If I use the sharpener it'll stay sharp." I sighed. "Is that really what you want the sharpener for?" "Yeah why would I get it if it wasn't for a pencil?" "To harm yourself Jungkook." He froze. "W-what no." He nervously chuckled. "Jungkook I know you self harm." His smile dropped.

"Who told you." I grabbed the sharpener. "It doesn't matter." I put back the sharpener. "I'm sure Namjoon has a sharpener you can borrow." He pouted. "Fine.." "I'm gonna go to the Toy isle with Mia are coming?" He shook his head. "I wanna see what else the have." I nodded. "Okay I'll come get you when Im done searching for toys with Mia." I turned around and went to the toy isle and let Mia look around for toys.

•Jungkooks pov•

I waited for him to be far from the isle and grabbed the sharpener with the biggest blades. I grabbed it and looked around me. I quickly unpacked it and shoved it in my pocket. I grabbed a pair of mechanical pencils and made my way to Yoongi. "That's what you want?" I nodded. "Okay." We all walked to a register and bought all of our stuff.

•timeskip•

I sat on the toilet seat at 1:00am unscrewing the blade. I pulled it out and placed it to my wrist. I dragged it across as blood poured out. I continued until I couldn't handle all the pain. I put the blade back in the sharpener and put it in a cabinet. I rolled my sleeve down and walked to the room and plopped onto the bed. I closed my eyes and let sleep consume me.