i've made a lot of mistakes in my life, some of which i wish i never made. i wish life could have continued without certain events altering it and making it the way it is now. i wish i knew what it would be like if it never happened. sometimes these types of things draw people closer together and realize where they need to change. i've been changing and growing, in ways that i'm so happy about.
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loneliness has struct me a lot recently, mostly because i haven't been busy and i choose not to be friends with most people. i either don't connect with them or they do things that i don't agree with. it's been hard but i rather have no friends than bad friends. i have a couple good friends in my life and that's really all i need right now. although i'm obviously not gonna say no to anyone that wants to be my friend, depends on who they are and what they do. i'm currently getting things set up for college so hopefully i'll meet some nice people! i know they're gonna be some shitty and annoying people, so i CANT WAIT. but i really can. i hate conflict and drama SO much. i know that's life but i really hate it.
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this is kinda a random entry, im just really tired and i can't sleep so i type until i get sleepy. which i'm exhausted and starting to get more tired but not enough to sleep. i have to get up early (0700) to get ready and drive to this driving class that's 8 hrs long. my motivation is that i'm getting closer to getting my license and i honestly can't wait. i feel like when i get it i can have my own escape when i can't stand being at home. i can take drives and jam to music. i cant wait.
also, i feel bad that people always have to drive me everywhere. i hate it, like sometimes it's okay but not all the time like it has been. my boyfriend drives me around all the time and he already has to drive a ton without worrying about me. he always goes out of his way to see me, i look forward to him not having to drive as much and saving money. instead, i can go see him more often when i can drive. :) that's another reason why i look forward to getting my license.
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i'm very sleepy now so i'm going to try getting some sleep before my class in the morning. i have to take a test after the class and my dad spent a lot of money on the class, so no pressure at all! i need rest.
goodnight people
maddy
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Randomthis story is something that i'm hoping will help other people as i write in it. i write about my thoughts and it helps just decluttering my mind. enjoy. ☺︎ ✧ ☼ ⚓︎ ♡
