My personal doctor

Confession

On the way back home, the car was very silent . I plugged in my earphones and played some sentimental songs while looking out into the window as the incident kept playing in my head.

Author's note:
Whenever Y/N is in the car with Tae and has gone through something bad, she would always play sentimental songs to help sort out her thoughts and to calm herself down lest she breaks down in front of Tae.

*Y/N POV*
She's right. Jungkook is too good for me . He deserves way better, there are so many women that are more capable , prettier and hotter than me, he will never fall in love with a nerd like me.

What he said just now , was all supposedly to intimidate Loral but to me, he is just trying to to save me from further embarrassment.

I don't know why, but the feeling of knowing that he would never fall in love with me makes my heart shatter .

Why..?

*End of Y/N POV*

As these thoughts went through my mind, I was unaware that we had reached home .

" Y/N, are you okay? Why are you crying?" Tae asked concerningly as he turned around planning to talk to me.

" Yeah... just a little tired from the shopping." I replied while quickly wiping my tears away without making it too obvious and taking my earpiece out of my ear .

" Are you unwell? Do you need Jungkook to check on you? You didn't seem to have as  much energy as compared to this morning during breakfast." Tae bombarded me with a million questions.

At this time, I just needed some peace and quiet to sort out my thought and feeling , and Tae asking me so many questions was definitely not helpful.

I covered my ears and yelled " I said  I'm fine!!" after that, I opened the car door and ran into the house straight to my bedroom. 

Jungkook tried to grab my wrist to prevent me from running but I managed to loosen my hand before he could tighten his grip. From the corner of my eyes, I could see Tae looking a little shock as I have never screamed at him before and Jungkook ...

As I was running through the hallway to my room , I heard footsteps running through the door. I quickly ran into my room and locked the door.

I threw my bag down and sat on my bed . I had so many thoughts over flowing in my mind and it was driving me insane.

My anxiety was building up as tears started forming at the brim of my eyes. I was just a complete mess.

" I'm sorry mom, dad, Tae , and ... Jungkook" I cried while mumbling. I reached over to my night stand to grab my pocket knife , and started to do the thing that I once promised Jungkook not to do.

Just then, I heard frantic knocks on my door, I immediately stopped what I was doing .

" Y/N , open the door please?!" Jungkook yelled in an anxious tone.

"Please Jungkook , leave me alone! I'm not fixable. Why bother trying to fix something that's broken. I'm not worthy your time." I screamed while crying.

" You are worthy of my time because I freaking love you. Y/N , please open the door?!" Jungkook pleaded.

" Jungkook , you deserve way better than me. You should have someone who can care and love you, not someone like me that thinks about killing herself everyday, and is judged by everyone for being an emotional introvert." I cried and said.

" Y/N , I love you so much! I can't stand to see you in this state. Please , just open this door..." Jungkook said with a tinge of sadness in his voice.

With shaking hands , I turned the door knob hesitantly. The door flew open in seconds and I quickly hid my hands behind my back , looking down, even though the bloodstains on my hands were obvious and I crying silently.

Jungkook took my hands from my back. " Y/N , why are you doing this? I thought you promised me?" Jungkook said while crying.

I was the reason for his tears, seeing him cry makes him cry even harder . Jungkook pulled me by my arm ( the part that was not injured) to my bathroom. He took the first aid kit in the bathroom and started wrapping my wrist with a bandage.

After he had finished, he brought me to my room and sat me down on my bed. I looked down and he squatted down to cup my face.

" Would you have ended it all if I didn't come?" Jungkook asked as tears were threatening to fall down his cheeks.

" I don't know?!" I barely managed to say when tears started flowed down my cheeks again. I closed my eyes and buried my face in my hands .

Then , I felt two strong arms wrap around me .

" Y/N , I love you... please... don't leave me..." Jungkook whispered into my ear as he silently cried and placed his head on the crook of my neck .

I put my hands down and hugged Jungkook in return as I buried my head in his chest and nodded.

"Y/N , is it convenient to come in now?" I heard a voice asking. I looked up and saw someone at the door.

It was Tae....

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