Euphoria {A Min Yoongi FF}✔

Chapter Four : Let's try

For the past four years, Cici and Mr. Lee have been meeting. At first it started as weekly visits, but after a while, and the young girl began to improve, they lessened it to every two weeks. They also did it because the office was in Seoul and it was hard for her Eomma to find the time to drive there every week when it was a few hours away. 

Cici was embarrassed about her sickness, which is why she made her Eomma promise. Promise not to say anything to anyone about this. She figured she would get through it with the help of just her Eomma and her Therapist.

But now her Hyung Knew.

It had been a few hours at this point, that Cici had been sitting on the ground under the tree, since she escaped from her home. No one came looking for her, as far as she knew. It made her feel lonelier. 

It was pretty dark out when she heard a leaf crunch. She looked around. "H-Hello?" Her voice was hoarse from crying, her throat dry. The mystery person sighed in relief at the sound of  her voice. "Yah.. Everyone has been looking for you. This is where you went?" Ryo Jin crouched in front of his Dongsaeng.

The girl sighed and hugged her knees. "Oh..Hyung."  Cici felt a bit better, knowing that they did look for her. She looked up at her Hyung. "Your face is all puffy..Why were you crying so much, hmm?" He asked, ruffling her hair.

She looked to the side, "I'm embarrassed, Hyung!" She shoved her face into her knees, and in a muffled voice, continued. "I told Eomma not to tell anyone, and now even the members of BTS know i'm a freak!" Ryo Jin sighed. "Cici, all they know is that you take medicine, they don't know why. They left before Eomma explained it to Us. Actually they're sitting in the van right now."

"Just go, Hyung. Don't make them sit in the stuffy van any longer. I'll go home." She said, releasing her knees. Ryo Jin smiled, and stood, "Come on, I'll walk with you." The young girl nodded and stood from her spot on the ground, and stretched her back, and they began walking.

"I was right, wasn't i?" Cici looked at him, confused, "About what?" Ryo Jin scratched the back of his neck. "About you not taking the medicine." Cici stayed quiet. Of course she didn't, they made her feel like she belonged in the hospital.

He sighed distraught,"You have to take them. Eomma said you were doing so much better. Why won't you take them?" Cici ran her hand through her hair. "I'll admit Hyung, they do help, they do make me feel better. But there's still a part of me, that absolutely hates having to rely on a pill to make me happy, to make me tolerable to the people around me. I want to be happy without them." She began crying again.

"I understand that, but.." He stopped and pulled his Dongsaeng into a hug. "The medicine will help you get to that place, eventually. But you have to be willing to try and i feel like you're not willing at all." Cici pulled out of the hug, "I am willing! It's just hard, Hyung!" The boy nodded, "Alright, let's head home."

They walked again for a while, before Cici spoke up,"Hyung?" The older boy hummed in response. "How did you find out about my medicine? Did Eomma tell you?" He nodded. "She didn't mean to. She was ranting about her troubles to me. Eventually she brought up that she was having a hard time getting you to take your medicine." Cici looked down. She felt terrible for causing her Eomma so much stress.

Ryo Jin continued, "She tried to play it off as if you had been taking pain medicine for migraines, but i knew it was more than that. I grilled her for answers and eventually she gave in." She nodded, understanding that her Eomma needed someone to rant to, it wasn't her fault.

They had almost reached the house when Cici stopped. She knew her friends might still be there, and it might be awkward, but she also knew that they could have also left, not wanting to deal with Cici's craziness.