Deep feelings and thoughts

I'm Sorry (you know who your are)

A/N: This was something i planned to say/text to my boyfriend. It was my way of trying to tell him how i was feeling after him moving on from me so soon. I felt like i have no right in saying any of this as it was my fault.

I am aware that this probably changes nothing and means nothing to you, and you still hate me but i just want to say i'm sorry. I realise i fucked up big time this time. I'm not getting you back and that's my fault not yours but i took it out on you anyway. There are a lot of thing i regret doing, to you especially. I can't say it enough, i'm so sorry. I know it probably means nothing to you because I've said it so much but i really am sorry. We don't have to be friends again, and i know you won't ever want me back but i just needed you to know that i fucked up and i'm sorry. I hate myself for what I've done to you and a lot of other people. I don't know whether i will actually get the courage to send this or say this to you, but i hope i do and i hope you know that i still love you as much as that hurts like hell. It's good to see you happy for once, it just hurts it's with someone else. I broke up with you for someone who was playing me, someone i knew was bad for me. I made one of the biggest mistakes of my life, letting you go. I fucked up and I've been beating myself up for it ever since...