Okay Yes

Moving on? Maybe?

So as you know I moved on from a very attached friendship. Lmao.

I'd say it was a part of my life that impacted me alot. With this experience, I hope to start better friendships and move on easier.

So how did I move on?

Surprisingly, I am not a woman of hatred. I don't like hating things, but sometimes I still get pushed to the limits.

Throughout the whole summer, I was still all caught up with the friendship breakup. I missed the heck out of my ex besties and idk I just still loved them so much from the bottom of my heart.

All I needed was a wake up call. A reminder of WHY I left. Instead of thinking about the greatest memories we have with each other, I didn't necessarily need to think about the worst, BUT I needed to think about myself. My own wellness, my own future, my goals, all that.

I'd say there was a catalyst to this and IT WAS A CHANCE TO HATE. All this time, I antagonized myself harshly, all of my sorrow was my fault, ALL OF IT. I broke something amazing and there was no fixing it, is what I kept thinking. But then something happened.

I heard about how the other party thought about me. And turns out, They hated my guts— idk it hurt me at first tho. Cuz bro i havent moved on. All I thought was more antagonizing.

Until it clicked,

So hi I'm about to spill some honey ass tea

Ehem certain person, you must've loved hearing about me. Idk what you know, BUT YES I suffered without ur presence. One thing tho is how ur gonna ask a person to talk shit about me? Thought I didn't know? Ms, "Rn I need you to talk shit about Jewel" — "Life surprises you" bullshit. Idk ig I didn't mean to you as much as you did to me. Fakeass bitch. My life is a fucking teenage movie bullshit. Freaking I care about you so much but I care more of being entertained bc MY LIFE IS SOOOOO BORING mothertrucker.

Ig I rlly don't need to feel that way bc I should've moved on already WHICH I DID. Like alot of matured people do ^_^ so dont worry, I wont do anything childish~ I'm just venting my dude!!

Also hmmm throughout this whole experience, I've been thinking alot? How can one person be such a hypocrite. Idk I just loved this person so much and thought of her as one of the best people I've ever met bc of their values and how important is kindness to them, but then turns out to be mean and desperate enough to be begging for trashtalk about her ex bestfriend. Even I haven't done such a thing no matter how childish i was. I just think such ppl are trashy for that.

Also love equality and peace so much but discriminate and prejudge other people? Idk that ain't it lmao.

For anyone like this PLS rethink ur life choices. Be genuine and true to urself, respect others and urself, be truly kind to others and urself, treat people how u wanna be treated, if someone doesn't treat u right, yeet from that hoe u deserve better.