Hopefully soon

Chapter 3

10/1/2013 Hi umm I don't know this is my first journal entry. Today is my friends birthday she turns 14 today. She looks nice with her blonde hair seems like she has a great personality. She is also out of my league. What popular girl wants to be seen with a nerd who's a nobody. Well anyways I guess I write to you later bye goodnight I guess

I feel terrible for not going to a friends birthday party. I couldn't go because of my parents. Since I'm the only one being raised by two moms and a "fatherly influence" they are super protective over me. I have never been to a sleep over and for god sakes I'm 13. 6 days from being 14 and I still can't sleepover at a friends house. I mean what the hell it's not like I will be killed. I have a pathetic childhood just all I want is happiness I want and need a girl who will love me for me and care and not use me god is that so hard to ask for.

10/7/13 I get to have my birthday party today. ha! Nope I have to wait till the weekend. I'm finally 14 now maybe this could be my time to get a girlfriend who actually loves me. But I probably don't want to get my hopes up. I'm just as people say fat, tall, and ugly. I just want love is that so hard. I just want to be loved. Love is all I need it truly is hopefully one day a girl will love this tall, nerdy, geek, fat guy. I'm about 50 pounds over weight and most likely rising. Well I have to go time to practice the violin.