the boy [ Joshler]

Our Father

When it came back there were cars and people acting jazzy all over the place. I walked up the stairs to an apartment. I opened the door and saw my brother sitting on the couch reading a new book that had just came out. He asked me how work went. I told him fine and he stood up and said he had to leave for work. He put his book up as i went to the bathroom. Once I heard the front door closed I opened the bottom drawer on the bathroom sink. I pulled out 4 bottles of pills. I downed them all. I fell to the ground as I heard the front door open. Brendon rushed into the bathroom and sat my head in his lap. He was crying telling me to hold on. I slowly fell asleep as I heard him sobbing very loudly. When I woke up i was in the tub with water running on top of me. I looked up and saw my brother holding onto me crying. I squeezed my hands and he looked down at me. He stopped crying and smiled at me. He pulled me into a close hug. He said, "Oh my god, I thought you had died."

"Well, I tried,"

I looked down at my feet. He told me not to do it again. Then everything went black. I asked L what was wrong. L said, "Have you noticed how your brother has never left your side. He is always been there for you."

"I see that. That was the first time I tried to kill myself after we turned."

 "Ok, are you ready for your next memory?"

"Yes"

Everything went white again. When the light came back I was back in high school. I walked into the class. I went to sit beside gee. One of the boys grabbed me and I fell to the floor. Both of my sleeves rolled up and  everyone saw my cuts. They all froze. I jumped up, covered my face and ran to the bathroom. I sat down on the floor and pulled out my razor in my wallet. I rolled up my sleeves and started to cut. I only got about 4 before gee walked into the bathroom. She grabbed the razor from my hand. I grabbed it back and cut 5 more lines quickly before she took it again and kept it. I hurried up and ran out of the bathroom screaming at her. I rolled down my sleeves and walked back to my homeroom. As I went to sit down everyone was looking at me.  I sat down and the teacher started class. At the end of class I went up and told the teacher to clean up the blood mess by my desk, then I walked out. 

At lunch my head was killing me. All the memories wouldn't leave  my mind. I looked over and noticed that Gee had left her bag to get her lunch. I ran over and grabbed my razor out of it, then ran back to my seat. After everyone left the lunch line and say down, I stood up on the table. I yelled at everyone to be quiet. One of the teachers walked over and told me to get off of the table. I told her one minute and she walked away. I looked around, then pulled my sleeves up. Everyone was surprised. I pulled the razor out of my back pocket. I took the razor and put it up to my throat. I looked around and saw everyone watching me. I then slid then blade across my throat. I dropped the blade, then I fell to the ground. I saw gee run over to me, then I closed my eyes and everything went black. 

"Do you remember that?" said L

"Yes, I woke up in the morgue. Gee was outside crying, while Brendon was just sitting there waiting for me."

"Ya, so are you ready for the next one?"

"Yep"

Everything went bright white again. When it went back i was at the castle in America. I got thrown against the wall by some guy. I fell to the floor very hard. I tried to get up, but I couldn't. The guy grabbed me by the wrists and threw me against the wall. The guy climbed on top of me and kept punching me. The blood started to get in my throat and I couldn't breath. He started to punch me harder. Everything went black. When I woke up a man gave me a cup of blood. I took the cup and drank the blood slowly. Once I was done, the guy took the cup and left the room. A little bit later, the guy brought me a pillow and a blanket. I laid my head down and fell asleep. When I woke up the guy was walking back into the room. I sat up and the guy grabbed me. He threw me down onto the bed made out of a few blankets. He got on top of me and I knew exactly what he was going to do. He pinned me down. I didn't have any strength to fight back with. Then he raped me. 

Once he left the room I pulled my shorts back up and curled into a ball. I cried until I fell asleep. I woke up to being shaked. I yelled please no and rolled over. I saw it was my brother and hugged him. Once i let go that guy walked into the room. I hurried up and hid behind Lyn-z. The guy asked her what they were doing here. Brendon said he was taking me home. The guy told Brendon no and tried to punch him. Brendon dodged it and threw the guy to the ground. Brendon asked him who he was. He said it was their father. Me and Brendon were shocked. Brendon wanted to know what happened to me. He said nothing and winked at me. I wrapped my body tighter around Lyn-z's arm. Lyn-z saw and let go of me. She walked over and pulled out his heart. Both of them walked back over to me. I didn't say anything. Brendon carefully picked me up and took me to our car. On the way home Brendon sat with me in the back of the car. I had my knees pulled up to my chest. When we got home, Brendon helped ,e to my room. once I was in bed I fell asleep. Everything went white again. L looked at me. "Are you ok?"

"Ya, i haven't thought about any of that in a while."

"Are you ok to do another one?"

"Ya, lets go."

Everything went white. Once it came into view, it was Josh and I.