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insecure.

[Requested]
(it's a bit.. angsty ^^")

For the past few days, you've been feeling horrible. To sum it up:
You barely get any sleep. You haven't eaten a proper meal in 2 days. You've been practicing way more that your body can take.

You unconsciously search up your latest concert and scroll through the comments.

"My Pace is such a nice song, but the girls vocals ruin it all."

"I can't believe she actually debuted, she can barely sing."

"Why can't the girl dance? She's ruining their image."

"She's ruining their image."
"She's the reason they don't get the recognition they deserve."

"If it were up to me, she wouldn't have debuted for another 10 years."

"She's
rU i N i Ng
tH e iR
iM a G eE"

You shut your laptop and check the clock. only 8:36 AM... i should go to practice.
You wore some leggings and a loose tank top, with a sports bra ofcourse. You slip on your worn out sneakers and head to the building.

"annyeonghaseyo." You greeted the receptionist the same as you have been for years now. Walking past trainees and other idols, you finally made it to your practice room.

You started at about 9:03, it's now 10:37 PM. You started to feel dizzy and soon everything went black.

"Minjae-ah!"
"Mae-ah!"

"Why didn't anyone realize?!"

You've barely woken up and you already felt guilty for making them worry. You slowly open your eyes as they get used to light.
"Minjae-ah! Are you crazy?! Why would you practice that much?!" Minho was already attacking you with questions as you sat up on the practice room floor.

"i'm sorry" You said in a soft, quiet voice as your lower lip trembled. "i'm sorry i couldn't even handle that much practice.."
"Minjae, are you stupid? No one could've handled that much non-stop practice!" Chan sat next to you, "Besides, when was the last time you ate?!"
You flinched at the last question, hesitantly you told him. "about... two days?.."
All nine boys eyes widened in shock.
Jeongin sat next to you and gave you a hug. "I'm sorry we didn't realize."
"That's because i didn't want you to realize."
Then Felix came up to you, "Why did you do it though?"

"how about.. i answer when we get home."

and so, you all went home.

Now, you were the type to tape papers or sticky notes on your walls. Ofcourse, each of them said something different. From song quotes, things you heard your classmates say, to something a cashier said that made you smile.

You told the boys to follow you into your room, and sat down on the bed.
"Aren't you going to tell us?"
You took a deep breath before you pointed towards the walls. Your new additions were written in the messiest handwriting the boys have ever seen you write in.

they all said something along the lines of:
"She can't even dance."
"Who would let someone with a voice like that debut."
"The group would be so much better."
"I can't believe she even got accepted into JYP."

they progressively got shorter and shorter,..
"visual hole."
"too ugly."
"not talented."

But, written in the biggest and messiest handwriting was something you wrote more than once.

"ruining their image."

"ruiniNg tHe iMage."

"s He 's rUi nI Ng
tH e iR iM a gE."

"I'm sorry" was all you heard as multiple arms rapped around you.
"It's alright, I'll tear them down and sleep. You guys should too."

o o f.
You woke up as Jeongin & Hyunjin threw themselves into your bed,
"LETS GO EAT!!"
You smiled and gave them a nod. "We'll leave you to get ready!"

You ended up wearing an over sized brown hoodie with black leggings and your brown timberlands.

You all went out and ate a bunch, enjoying your time together before going home and having a movie night.

Sorry if the end seems a bit rushed. It's kinda late here and i wanted to finish the chapter^^