Chapter 15:

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I got home and slammed the door throwing my suit coat on the ground. I wasn’t stable right now. God damnmit I don’t think I ever will be.

“Why Aspen? Why did you give up?” I yelled

I stood there waiting for a answer that was never going to be answered.

I ran into my kitchen and grabbed a beer from the refrigerator. I don’t drink, I hate the taste. But right now I need something to help me forget.

I sat on the kitchen floor drinking bottle after bottle until I felt out of it. I ran my fingers through my hair and looked at the picture of us on the refrigerator.

It was when we went on the first date.

“You looked so beautiful Aspen” I said as the alcohol took over me.

“You always did, even at your worst. You were the most beautiful thing ive ever seen” I felt the tears stream down my cheeks “I know I told you I was strong, that I would be strong. But god damnit Im not. What I didn’t fucking tell you aspen when we were there by that tree, that I was the termite. Without you I cant live.” I said wiping my cheeks and got up slamming a bottle on the ground watching it shatter.

I walked to my mum’s room and went into her closet grabbing the gun she hid behind her shoe boxes. I could feel the alcohol in my body, but I wasn’t worried about that right now. I knew what needed to be done.

I ran back to the kitchen in sight of the picture.

I cried putting the gun up to my head

"I dont think you understood how much I needed you. You were the light at the end of the tunnel and now since that light is gone, there is no reason to continue." I cried placing my head on the wall.

I stood there with the gun on my temple and my finger on the trigger.

I then felt it, the feeling you get when you know its all over.

I felt it and I knew.

I smiled at the picture in front of me, Ive gone mad.

I knew nothing could fix me, except her. If thats true so be it.

I put the gun back up to my head and smiled once more letting my finger fall upon the trigger

“I love you Aspen Irwin. Always”

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