Paalala lang. If may napansin kayong mga wrong grammars hayaan niyo nalang po besides its my story not yours.Eh kung gusto niyo talaga ng story na perfect ang mga grammar youre free to remove my story in your library.
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Days had passed since my baby died and my life becomes more miserable. Crying every night is my new hobby. My four cornered room becomes my new world and losing my loved ones is already now my fate.I have accepted that everyone will leave me maybe not now but surely it'll be soon. From this day onwards my happiness will not depend on others it will depend on myself because surely myself will not leave me but others will.
"Anak saan ka pupunta?" Si mommy,nagtataka siguro kung bakit lumabas ako ng kwarto at bihis na bihis.
"Sa sementeryo lang my"
Today I will visit my baby in the cementery.Gusto sanang sumama ni mommy pero gusto kong mapag isa, gusto kong mag isip.
I arrive in the cementery after a few minutes of drive.I parked my car and then grab the flower i bought before coming here.
Ang maisip na ang aking anak ang nakalibing sa tinatayuan ko ngayon ay syang nagpaluha sa akin.Ang aking anak na pinagkaitan ng buhay, ni hindi ko man lang nakarga ni hindi ko lang nahalikan at hindi ko naalagaan kagaya ng ginagawa ng mga ina sa kanilang mga anak.
Walang nakalagay na pangalan at petsa ng pagkasilang sa lapida ng aking anak.Ang tanging makikita lang doon ay kung kailan ito pumanaw. Umupo ako dahil sa nagbabadyang luha.Masakit ang mawalan ng anak lalong lalo na kung ito na lamang ang iyong kinakapitan.
"Anak patawarin mo ako.Nang dahil sakin ikay nawala.Hindi kita nabigyan ng pagkakataong mabuhay.Atsaka maaarin hindi pa ako makakadalaw sa susunod.Ang hirap hirap kasing isipin na wala kana sa akin." Lumuluha kong sambit para sa aking anak.
"Im leaving now and You will always be my baby always remember that. I want to forget the pain but it doesn't mean I will forget you.
Matapos kong sabihin yun ay umalis na ako at pumunta sa isang coffee shop. I and Seth used to drink coffee here. We used to enjoy and love this place, But for now I will enjoy this moment with myself.
I'm escorted by a waitress to my usual spot. I ordered my favorite coffee and at the same time their best seller here. It's been months since the last time I got here. I wonder if there's any improvement.
"Here's your order Ms. Ferrer. Your creamy cappuccino is ready. "
I wonder why she knows my name. I search myself if there's any traces or name tags or any stuff that led her to know my name but I don't see anything.
"How did you know my name?"
"Ah kasi po matagal na akong nagtatrabaho dito. Madalas po kayo dito nung gwapo mong boyfriend.Nagtataka rin po ako kung bakit mag isa lang kayo?"
Nabigla ako sa tanong niya. Noong huling may nagtanong sakin kung nasaan na si seth ay si Denisse lagi ang sumasagot.But my dear friend isn't here so i should answer this question.
"A month ago we almost got married but he didn't come. He leaved me without a word so i assumed that we already broke up." I look at the waitress and I realized that I shouldn't said those words.
"Oh I'm sorry I'm talking too much"
"Okay lang po ma'am. Ako dapat ang humingi ng sorry dapat sana hindi na kita tinanong.Atsaka alam ko pong mabait kang tao kaya dadating din ang taong magmamahal sayo ng totoo at hindi ka iiwan.Babalik napo ako sa trabaho ko maam, enjoy po."
Napangiti nalang ako sa sinabi niya. Dahil sa usapan namin ay parang gumaan ang dibdib ko.
Napagpasyahan kong tapusin na ang iniinom kong kape para maka uwi na pero may nakita akong papel na nakadikit sa lalagyan ng kape. Tinignan ko yung ibang customers at nakita ko ring may nakadikit na papel sa kanilang kape.Baka gimik ito ng coffee shop. Binuksan ko ito at aking binasa.
Instead of wiping your tears,Wipe away the people who created them.
A very inspirational quote. I will definitely do that.
"Enough for the fucking dramas and continue living my life normally as if theres nothing happened" I said to myself before leaving the coffee shop.
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Shanny
