Lost Cause

Unforgivable

His evil eyes... studying me while i'm on the floor i hope he won't recognize me he started Walking towards me oh no i closed my eyes tightly hoping he won't notice me before i shut my eyes i saw his unforgivable look in his eyes   

Janitor: MR.CHRIS sorry i'm late sorry for the wait 

Chris(Dad) : It's okay come on lets go  

I started listening to his footsteps fading i turned around shocked it's really him 

I got up and continued my way  to the bathroom 

Alicia : I-I need a break 

I didn't want to go back to the class  i'm not in a stable mood to continue i'm so tired Remembering all these memories again is alot to take in.I hope i won't meet him again 

I got up and started walking out of the bathroom to the entrance 

Alicia: I'm going home...fuck this shit 

I called mom to pick me up..but she's not answering at all.That's strange she always picks Up my calls i have a bad feeling  about this i started running towards my house..its a bit far

 But I have to check on my mom i ran as fast as i can i made half the way through and then Stopped to catch my breath...i didn't have alot of money but i'm gonna call a taxi  i started calling and he picked up 

Alicia: Hello?

Taxi Driver: Hello how may i help you ?

Alicia : I need you to pick me up i'm at blackwell street. 

Taxi Driver : Sure.Be right there 

I closed the call

Alicia: His voice seems familiar..i heard it somewhere before but i can't remember when its hard to remember it now with all these thoughts about mom not picking up.  

-Honk- -Honk- 

I turned my head and saw the taxi car i entered the car not sparing the driver a look 

Taxi Driver:Can i tell you a story ?

why is the driver asking me that i'm a bit creeped out but lets hear him 

Alicia: Okay.

Taxi Driver: It was a story of a man who was happy with his family nothing was wrong this family was the happiest but things started getting worse his wife started getting drunk the man started going out alot with his friends to avoid his wife's bullshit about him cheating when he's actually not one day..

he came home the mother was drunk and accused him of cheating  and the girl was in the corner holding her teddy bear tightly the man snapped and said their lives are miserable and the daughter was a mistake and slapped the girl Blamed her for everything wrong that's happening the girl's eyes were full of tears and She gave her father the look of fear and dissapointment and then he left the man felt really guilty after that he punished himself and started blaming himself instead if his daughter he thought to himself that blaming her was a mistake and she isn't a mistake at all she was the happiness that came on the day she was born.

It can't be him not again.He turned the car mirror towards his eyes. 

I gasped in a shock that i got speechless didn't know what to do this is too much seeing Him twice a day i silently sobbed and cried i hope he didn't recognize me 

Taxi Driver (Chris) : Ah we reached 30 please.

Alicia : I gave him 30 while hiding my face hoping he won't recognize me. 

Taxi Driver (Chris): Thanks. 

I opened the car door before stepping on the floor  

Taxi Driver:I recognized Alicia.You didn't even tell me which address.See you 

I shutted the car door and  ran as fast as possible  to my house and opened the door mom wasn't there.I started searching the whole house hoping to find a sign of her I ran upstairs She wasn't there.

Suddenly i felt my phone vibrating in my pocket I picked the phone call Without looking at the number.

Doctor: Hello,Ms.Alicia ?

Alicia : Yes that's me who is it? 

Doctor: I'm calling from the hospital its about your mother. 

Alicia : What about her?

Doctor : Come to the hospital>

-Beep-

Alicia: HELLO ?! 

The hospital isn't far from here even tho its raining i will ride my bike to reach there as fast as i can and i reached i tossed my bike aside and started running towards the hospital.

I slowed down and started making my way to the hospital entrance hoping that my mother is okay every inch of me was shaking and the bad feeling is growing more i started walking to the reception.

Alicia: In which room is Emma Belle?

receptionist: hmm,let me check. She..

Alicia :SHE WHAT?!

Receptionist: I'm sorry.She recently passed away from a car accident.

Hearing those four words made my knees weak i fell on the floor my whole body is trembling...my pain becoming even more painful i held back my screaming that i was bottling in a long time ago my eyes tearing up really fast i'm now more broken than before clutching onto my heart closing my eyes shut hoping that this is a nightmare...

 trying to avoid reality that wrecked me into pieces i tried picking my own pieces up the more i try the more i get hurt an more broken than before no one can fix me.My aunt came she knew the news it hitted her too she took me home.

                                                                          The very next day..

I didn't get out of my room i skipped school and skipped meals.Missed calls from Wren sitting in the dark corner of my room my legs to my chest my arms hugging my legs my head laying on my arms crying,sobbing and screaming

 i didn't know what to do i held my photo frame and threw it on the mirror the mirror glass was all over the floor my screaming echoing through the house tearing my clothes out of the closet with scissors pushed the closet and continued screaming my eye were empty like doll eyes my hand was bleeding alot i didn't care all this pain was way too much to take in i got teared up from the inside it hurts i didn't want all this. I just wanted a normal happy life that i can never get. This is too much to process