My inner thoughts

darkness

With all the darkness that resides.
It seems it's no room for the light.
That tries so hard to squeeze in.
To provide me with its glow.
And my mind is occupied .
By nothing but the darkness.
That's pulls me in with no mercy.
It watches me suffer in pain.
Offers no sense of peace at all.
Just a place I hate to be.
Every time I attempt to escape.
I fall deeper in this dark hole.
Soon enough it won't be a escape.
Even if someone tries to help.
They may be wasting time.
Since its no way out.
Don't say there is to me.
It's dark it's pitch black.
This is no easy escape.
So instead I get use to this.
Make a home out of monsters.
Each step feels like their attacking.
Waiting till I'll burst until something.
Happens they are in control.
And I I'm not in no control.
They have me at the weakest point.
Eventually believing their mouths.
Maybe I deserve all of this pain.
Each day I accept the suffer.
Like open wounds who cry out.
They get ignored .
The monsters kiss them.
A toxic kiss to numb the pain.
Drown in this feeling all alone.
That's fine really I'm serious.
Made a home with these monsters.
Even though they stab at me.
Watching me suffer from the inside.
It brings them not to see me hurt.
And I'm sorry but don't stay to long.
Better off just me with the monsters.
You wouldn't quite understand.
How I got so close to them.
How I need them and want them.
Be lost without them just nothing with out them.