It's been a week since I came to his house. Its nice, I like it. But I can't help it but think about the way that I love him. Do I love him cause he's Jensen Ackles? Or do I love him cause he's sweet and funny? I can't tell. All I know is that, when I'm around him, I can't help it but be happy. So what does it mean?
We sit on the couch next to each other watching 'Doctor Who' of course. Im curled up into him. My head is on his his chest and our legs are intertwined laying on the couch. For the first time, I can't pay attention to Doctor Who. All I can think about is me and Jensen. I remember, when we were at this restaurant, he got orange pop up his nose. There was this baby laughing at him. I cleaned him up and it looked like I was his mother. And then This girl about 13, came up with her mouth dropped open.
She said that she was completely in love with him and told him he was hot. And of course I got jealous. My face turned red like an angry bull. Jensen started laughing really loud.
He awakes me from my thoughts with a kiss on my forehead. I realise the episodes over. The end credits are still playing though. I sit up and so does he. I reach over to him and grab the remote hitting the return button twice so it shuts up.
"Jensen," I say and take a deep breath ready for what I'm about to say. I've made up my mind. I love him. "I don't want just our fooling around. I want more than just that."
"We'll make this right soon. I promise. But I don't wanna get too serious and then have to stay away from you."
I nod. I forgot he had a wife. Dam it. But there contract is almost up. About 3 more weeks till she comes back and then we have to do something. "I don't want you to lose your career over me. And I don't want to hurt anybody like your wife."
"One thing you need to know, is that all I care about is you."
He always says the right thing. He can make a bad day be the best day. How did I ever find a man this amazing?
I give him a kiss and we go to bed. I dream about how it could all go down. Easy, fast, hard, a war, tearful, us breaking up, me killing myself, his wife dying, us just being friends, I don't know, all I can do is wait and enjoy my time with Jensen, for it all could be over soon.
