Before I can love you I need to love myself. I hope you can understand that. We've dated twice already and maybe that's enough. Maybe we shouldn't date again. Even though we love each other I think it's best if we don't date yet. We both need to work on our selves. Especially me. I keep coming back to you cause I don't like not being in a relationship. And I need to stop doing that. I keep coming to you thinking I still love you. But I'm not actually sure anymore. You're such an ass to people at times. You're an ass to people you call your friend. And I keep thinking I love you. Maybe I'm addicted to coming back for the pain you give me. It's not healthy what I'm doing. I need to stop. I need to figure out what I truly want and I can't do that with you. I have to figure it out by myself. I need to learn how to love myself before I can love anyone else. I know it may be hard to hear but it's the truth. I can't love you until I learn to love myself. I'm not sure how long that will take but I need to give it a shot. I need to love myself. I keep breaking myself down cause I hate myself. Which I need to stop and I need to start loving me more. I keep giving my love away to others when I should keep some for myself. I don't expect you to wait for me. You can do whatever the hell you want. I just can't love you right now. I'm not in a good place and I need to get better. I need to learn what I want. And with some time it will happen.
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Letters that I'll never send
PoetryThis story or whatever you'd like to call it. It is where I come to rant. It's an escape that keeps me sane. Maybe some can relate to parts of what I've said.
