I'm scared so scared. My anxiety has been bad lately and I wish I could tell you why. But I can't cause you're part of the reason I'm anxious. I keep thinking that maybe your just leading me on again. Which maybe your not but I can't help but feel that way. I wish I didn't have such bad anxiety. I'm sorry that I get like this sometimes. I can't help it though I keep thinking you'll find someone better and then leave me like the others did. God the times I actually open up to you, you make me feel so much better. Maybe I should do it more but I don't want to be annoying. Which is a big fear of mine. I just want to be enough for you. And maybe I am and just don't realize it. Maybe I'm so blind to the signals your giving me. Ha just like how I was when you were flirting with me for the first time. God I just love you so much. I want to kiss you again. And I just want to be able to call you mine. Ugh but I'm too scared to ask you out. Plus it wouldn't work well if we did date. We barely get to hangout and your parents are pretty strict so I can't talk to you much. Which honestly sucks so much. I just want to be able to be with you. Like honestly that's all I want. I just want to be yours....
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Letters that I'll never send
PoesíaThis story or whatever you'd like to call it. It is where I come to rant. It's an escape that keeps me sane. Maybe some can relate to parts of what I've said.
